close my eyes pretend to fly.

2004-11-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

hello. ive MOVED.

2004-11-01T16:58:00.000+08:00

prologue
ehh! i didnt tell anyone okay??!!
tskk. hahah. ((:

chap 1
i will love you until my dying day.
i remember this phrase.
hmm.

chap 2
mwahaha. stimes i wonder
what happened to her taste

chap 3
and stimes i wonder.
why these ppl are so two faced.
liars.
mwahahha.

chap 4
i am so turned on by you!! goshh

THE END.

lee is mad la.
because she's too turned on.

((:

`giggles.

2004-11-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

lightbulbs arent the only things that turn me on.
you do.
you're the ULTIMATE turn on
and i wish you were mine
haha. ((:

anw tday had bandy bandy band. ((:
but not productive.
totally disappointed.

but anw..
today was the closest
not closest ah..
but am damn happy that i actually got near you
mwahaha. but you dont turn me on.

THAT PERSON DOES. ((:

[sugar sugar.]

2004-10-31T13:59:00.000+08:00

just freak out and LET IT GO.
the joy of being single. ):

i feel bad.
sigh.

anw lets recap yesterday at seoul garden.
mwahhaha. okay i admit i was damn turned on okay
hee. ((: uhh reached jp at 530
met rizza arif and uhh. OH BLIND ME.
yeah then we went to reserve the place.
hahaha. okay nth much to talk abt la.
we were just damn shocked that we had to pay 25 freakin dollars
just for the fckin dinner. and it wasnt worth it at all.
hmm. then ate ah. me and athiyah were wearin the same adidas shirt
except mine was green and hers was PINK. haha.
she kept OW-ing cos the thing pop-ed at her.
hahhaahaha. then we went to rizza's house
his neighbor's son is like so cute!
i was like kissin him and everythin la. ((:
too cute.
hmm then cabbed back home.
oh wells.

im confused.
drown in my own thoughts

am i even ready for this relationship
cos i feel that im not.
things are not working out between you. and me.
its not you.
its me.
im the cause of this shit
why did i even jump into this relationship
without realising im not ready?

im so screwed.

[turn on.turn off.]

2004-10-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

urgh. this damn blog. i wanna kill it.

2004-10-28T10:02:00.000+08:00

under construction.((:

2004-10-25T14:48:00.000+08:00

CHRISTOPHER MICHAEL LEE ROCKS!
ahem.
everyone has a right to their own opinion okay.
heh. chris rocks. ((:
go chris!

soo long havent updated yet
i think farkface got motive
mwahhaha. nvm.
we shall see what games she'll be playing

the wenchy-wench is not bowlin!
but angel and god is comin so i dont give a damn
mwahhaa. i love em.

anw. that day chalet ahh was good!
hahah so outdated but nvm

eh i wanna go delete this damn blog.
so boring ler.
nth to update anymore
)):

wahoo((:

[joy to the world!]

2004-10-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

mwahaha. since i cant blog at home
i shall blog in the library. using sitt's account

SCREAMER

crescent girls' school band is having a concert
these are the details

musical evening 2004
16 nov 2004
7.30pm - approximately 9.30pm
tickets are priced at $15 and $25
free seating

all are welcome!
any queries feel free to approach any band members
((:

[#cgssb]

2004-10-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

i want my sex god

come on over
let me feel you

but no! im gonna stay faithful
he's only an eyecandy anyway
heh

and im so damn slow!
damn nehnehpokks.
tskk
the whole conversation im like confused
and wot wot wot wot-ing

mwahaha. i love youuuu.

ahems. hahahha took cab today to je library again
then called mom
she wanted to meet at wot? IKEA?!
damn. hahah so me and athoyah
YES ATHOYAH. went to ikea.
hahahaha
had so much fun. ((:

damn. i cant even type properly.

i just love you la.

okay?

[hee. SEX BOMB.]

2004-10-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

i am quite confused now
can someone tell me what's goin on?

why now?
after all that's happened
after ive moved on
why now?

hmm these days have been good good
but q confusing
ehh there's nth to write abt actually
im damn straight
hahhaah and proud of it
hmm lets recap
ahhh been to the library for the last wat?
few weeks?!
hmm hahaha.
it was damn fun and everythin
anw cant wait fer tmr!
got chalet!!! rizza arif and athiyah comin ahh!!
wot fun man.wahooo.mwahhaha

uhm. im sorry too.((:

[why now?]

2004-10-07T18:18:00.000+08:00

wahh. been ard friendster
haha the face. so faeces-like.
god i wanna lick that person's face man
hahaahahahaha this kinda ppl can fall in love with ah.
sooooo jantan.
hah.

been out and about with my girlfriends.
went to library AGAIN.
hahhaa lalapokks.
rizza was sooooo uber funny today
i feel like slappin him.
hahah. ((:

im just gonna flunk my science alrights?
so irritating.
im just waitin fer maths

[come on over.]

2004-10-06T17:41:00.000+08:00

~~single~~/attached

yep. aint officially yet.
but hey i love ya. ((:
hmm. a lot of things have been happenin
my life just rocks nowadays
today didnt get sore eyes man
but i still got my cure.
haha history was alrights
managed to finish everything
d and t was crap la! mwahahahahahhaa
drawed lotsa crap
wrote lotsa crap
then went off t library again
sat with you. ((:
mwaha. why is fadhil sooooo uberly cute?!
haha that's athiyah's cousin
he's only sec1 and he looks sooooo cute
haha i love to pinch his cheeks.

hmm. i broke my promise la shitt
what one month
not even a week yet
and im already attached to you.
hahahhaa. ((:

i love my national hocker.

[fuzzy wuzzy?!]

2004-10-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

alrights! i know im not supposed t be here
have been goin t the library these few days
hmm. and he never reply me
ohwells. i think he'll get into trouble with his mom
hahhaah. hmm lit was alrights. could do most of it
in the mornin woah i tell you my eye pain ler.
i can get sore eyes can?!
wahhh fck. hmm haha they say it's chinless.
haha. god then it was squeezin time
mwaha. hmm paper startd off welllll...
eyegummy walked pass. can die
she's my eye cure.
hahah. ((: then done went off t nurul's house t get things
then left fer library
((: ate ljs with him
he helpd me cut my chicken
hahahaha. so cute.
mwaha. hmm then waited for the rest of the boys t come
tried t sleep.
oh wells. then they came
blahblah. now im home.
hmm moodswing-ed a bit just now
lalapokks.

i dont wanna give him the wrong signs
im still confused about my feelings.
and i dont wanna lead him on.
sigh. tell me wot t do.

i feel that my feelings for him is true
but again.
i dunno...

[is it or is it not?]

2004-10-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

disappoint`d.

quite la. saw his friendster account
woah. millions of girls.
i mean who wouldnt fall fer him
haha. i did.
and kwan. im straight
im tellin you now. i am straight
and yes. i turnd straight overnight
you'd better believe it ((:
but im disappointd.
nvm. shall confirm later tnight
haha. ilu+
hmms. went library agn.
he lent me his bio book fer dna stuff.
was kinda helpful. kinda
they say he's a gentleman.
bahh. haha pukes blood!
so cute. cant stop raving la.
hmms. tday was productive without the boys
copied notes and valency stuff
yeah. lets start from the morn.
talked t lilian. ((:
and raved abt him la.
then had maths. lit. science
mrs neo was lame! ((:
everything seems nice to me tday.
hahahaha. then had recess. malay. lit again. then history
audrey neo didnt come. so it was chaos
photocopied lotsa lit notes
yeah. had history lecture
couldnt be botherd t listen
then went off t library. ((:
hmms. i hate phones now
i hate them cos they have batteries
which just limits our phone usage time.
shit la. )):
haha.

[keep telling myself that im not fallin fer him.]

2004-09-30T19:38:00.000+08:00

im waiting for him to msg me back
and i cant wait

i love the je library.
((: he rocks

anw diana tay.
ive never regarded you as an enemy
but the way you do things to my friends
its really horrible

yeah send this t mdm lim
i dont mind
cos i too have many things to say
abt you dissing my friends
and a lot of other things that your friends did and said
abt the rumours
and everything
now let me have my say

we have nothing now
ive moved on.
you've moved on.
i dont wanna talk it out
cos you wont listen.
remember what happened the last time i tried talking to you?
and there's no point in talking it out anw
cos you wont change your attitude towards me

and what. you dont regard me as an enemy?
why did you say you hated me last time?
oh wells. i guess yer as contradictive

leave your friends? dianatay
ive never done a thing to hurt your friends
ive never even talked to them since that day
am i the one hurting them
or are they the ones hurting me?
dont be prejudiced.

harrasment?
i can charge YOU with harrasment too.
cos you're harrasing my friends
there's two sides of everything
and you too have your flaws.

you're not feelin any loss?
neither am i. cos im in love
ive moved on. ive already forgotten abt you
and whatever we had.
but i swear ive never regretted everythin that has happened

am i too much? am i?
since when am i too much
have i ever slapped you across the face?
have i ever insulted you?
i dont even TALK to you for god's sake
if you're angry, pls dont put the blame on me
cos look. reflect back.
and tell me when have i been too much.

and abt my blog?
its my blog. i write what i want
if you dont like it then dont read it.

and yes we are immature. but so what?
we're growing teenagers
and we're not in a hurry to grow up. ((:

takecare dianatay.
as in honestly.
i hope things between you and your gf would work out
i wish both of you the best. ((:

i love him.
no i dont la. or do i??!!
he's just cute and bloody smart
haha. sit nad nurul and athiyah((:
he msged me lei. ((:
and he's so sweet.
i love je library la.
gosh. ive never blushed so much in my life. (((:
-smiles.

[hockeyboy.]

2004-09-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

i am right i swear im right

hah. anw. i love busted
wani reminded me of them tday!

she's my psychogirl, my psychogirlfriend
she's everything i need, but i cant stand her

aheh. ((: anw. turkey's playing against greece?!
yay! got ilhan mansisz and emre!
wahh foork. i love eh.
kk. hahahaahh been listenin t michael buble's sway!
and been laughin at it
cos i am reminded by today's incident

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
You know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

hahha. ((: i love this song
anw. yeahh i need t pee
but inside the toilet got baby lizard
shucks. hahaa.

`i love your peaches i wanna shake your tree

why do we like to gossip abt shamita and her lover during our recesses??!!
gosh. ((: hahaha points to recess gossip members.
and why are some ppl soooo uberly pretty arh

esp the bastard lei girl. you know who right?
haha anw you arh. take care lots yeah
im sorry cos i couldnt talk t you just now
im sorry. hope things'll turn out good yeah?
dont be affected. ((:

hahah now real madrid match is on!!!
my love raul. and guti. goshhhh..
hmm. nth much t update. ((:
but im nt act in a good mood nowww.
tsk. i hate them.

on my face shows a million words unspoken
i wanna shout out loud and tell you im here
but youre in a world of yer own
and you just cant hear me out.

hahaa.
wotever.

[she's what i go t school for.`eyecandy!]

2004-09-29T13:20:00.000+08:00

oh my god. i made nic delete ~~her~~ from her friendster account
hahaha. no wait. nic did it on her own account
pam just said

"diana oh diana. i feel for you." in a sexy voice.
hahaha. ohmygod.
"the love of my life is just so striking. diana oh diana.."
"my last wish is to be with you... i wish i have the courage to tell you that i love you"
"but i cannot make it"
"i wished you could have a face transplant."
"then i'll come down from heaven to be with you"
"and then we'lll live happily together forever"
"i love you always. you love me always.."
"I WANNA DANCE WITH DIANA LEI.
i wanna feel her. i wanna sway with her.
then we'll sway to the rhythm of our love"

haha my stomach's gonna burst!!!!!
hahahhahahah hhhahahahahahahhahahahaa
LOLs.LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL .

LOL.

"diana oh diana"
"yer the love of my life..."

LOL.

[come closer. let me feel your body.]

2004-09-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

oh yeah.
pam reckons you dont need eyecream
cos you've got ugly unrepairable eyes.
HAH.
pam likes circles.
no she likes stars.
hot pink stars
and she loves diana tay ann ann!!! NOOOO!!!!
ugh pam! just WHAT happened to your taste??!!
haha. keep lovin

put on michael buble's sway
and lets watch the world's most hot couple dance.
ahehaheh//
cos they're just as suay.

[sway.]

i feel happy for vivian.

PAM LURFES OLINDA CHO. (:

2004-09-29T13:09:00.000+08:00

im sorry if i ever gave you a hard time when you were with me
but it didnt occur to me that you'll regret whatever we had
and it's just so disappointing
i mean yeah its over and everything
but there's no need for regret.

damn it. if i had known ths would happen
id never think of you as a nice person in the first place
i thought you were different

but i guess now you're worse.

2004-09-29T11:19:00.000+08:00

tsk. if you wanna diss dont diss my friends la
and esp dont diss viviaNICky cos she has nothing against you
tsk.
and esp you.
we thought you were nice.
we thought that you were so nice
but you proved us wrong
i mean. what do you have against vivian?!
what do you have against this sweet ex softballer
your own junior
damn it.
you changed in a blink of an eye
nods-vivian
we're like. damn. disappointed. esp. in. you.

THIS IS PAM AND I JUST WANNA DECLARE MY LOVE FOR DIANA TAY ANN ANN.
WHAT A NICE NAME. HMMMMS.
I DONT KNOW.
BUT PLEASE STOP STARING AT ME.
I WILL BLUSH.
OR YOUR GIRLFRIEND WOULD GET ANGRY YOU KNOWW.

haha. that was pam. ((:
aheh aheh aheh.

2004-09-28T18:06:00.000+08:00

hee please don say cheebye cos that word just cracks me up
and please. lee doesnt spell her HAVE as HAF
if wanna be an imposter next time dont be a failure alrights?
and i have a cheebye face what you jealous arhhh
haha. at least not as cheebye as yours can alr
take care girlfriend.

haha. all these fucken people
just fuckin crack me up.
wah the face damn fucken chio la.
so poser.
eeeeeeeyeeeerrrrrrr.
if im gonna read that thing one more time
i'll just roll over and puke fckin blood out of my fucken mouth
mother fucken cheebye.
hahah. CHEEBYE. fuck it man.
if i hear that word one more time ill just die of laughter
-giggles.
seriously. im just gonna puke blood man.
stare at me one more time with yer fucken eyes and i'll dig em out
like seriously. fuck yerself la.
and burn in hell.
ooh wait. HELL WONT EVEN TAKE YOU IN
MUCH LESS HEAVEN
cos you've been such a mother fucken bitch.
hah.
carrot sucks. HAH. OUTTA POINT
i swear im never gonna type in that url ever again.
god save me from this shit.

and girl ah. i know yer reading this
sorry i didnt msg you back alrights?
cos my mom confiscated my phone. damn
hmm. anw dont care abt big fuck la
ive got a bigger fuck bastard to deal with
remember bastard? yeah. THAT bastard.
and please. its not all over my face
i aint depressed
im just fuckin pissed now
but im happy alrights?((:
dont worry bout me
i'll be fine
you take care of yourself alright girlfriend?
((; winkwinkwink
oh yeah. im not falling in too deep
i just like her. cos she's hot. and charming. ((:
cos eyecandy rocks my world. ((;
just like your:
red 11 soccer gardening jiayou special hansome cute person.
haha. so funny.

and fuck off la. damn
i aint gonna make my life miserable cos of you.
nope.

[say what you wanna say.]

2004-09-23T19:38:00.000+08:00

rolls over and pukes blood.

its been almost a year.
and ive gotten over you

ee. so disgusting
seeing these ppl do disgusting things
pukespukespukes
eee. eeeeeeee. shudders.

okay. i have been damn productive tday!
yay! haha made study plans
am soooo proud of myself

and i aint gonna let atg affect me
hmph. and i didnt even know she was attached!
wtf. then anyhow say i spread shit.
nehnehpokks. ahems. anws,

haha. lets recap tday!
so many `wrong things today!
like the tall ones with the short ones
aheh. that is so wrong
so... so... wrong!!!
aheh. and the ugly one with the uber ugly one.
oh gosh. that is wronger.
haha. and me and sp tgt?! that's the wrongest!!!!
hahhahaa. sooooooo wrong. soooo bloody wrong!
aheh aheh aheh.

kk then tday had mass run. stopped halfway
cos i needed t go t the toilet.

hee. kay then had band meeting. so fun.
aint going new zealand
postpone the postpone
i dont think we'll be travelling ever.
tsk. forever cheat ppl's feelings one.
but anw got combine band thing with acs(i).
((: no comments. i love him.

then d&t was fun. cos i finished evey project alr
disturbed wani while she was sleepinggg.
so fun! hahaha. hmm then had recess
then malay wani and me inhaled lotsa helium
made us really high. cos we were laughing throughout the lesson
hee. so gigglish. then had maths. got punished
cos i hapily forgot t bring the maths paper
hmm then had maths test. was carelesss.
i hate myself. )):

hmm haha. then had wot ah
oh yeah! science
ate my epok-epok in the faraday room. so yummy!
mrs neo was bring funny again. hmm.

haha then went back t class
packed bag and table.
sang a lot of songs. ((:
eeks. then saw them. -shruggs.
aheh. pay no attention t the previous line.
then went home with ash and wani ((:
ate ice cream! i paid.

hmpf hahaaa.love my peeps.

hmm then went to buy stationary!
lalala. oh drains. im broke!
`drains drains drainsss.

aheh. kk then went home made study plans!
so guai la i cant take it.
hmm. now shall resume studying
i wanna pass. ((: pass pass pass

`iknowimgonnapass.

damn those bastards.

hah.

`iloveyou

[gotcha.]

2004-09-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

and handsome boy should seriously go and burn in hell.

2004-09-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

hmph. i hate the way some ppl assume things
i mean. i didnt even say a thing to anyone
i didnt even know you were attached.
until someone told me
and pls. i have no time t gossip
t talk abt you and your life
its not like i still love you
so i have no fucking idea why.you.are.blaming.me.for.this.shit.
and if you dont like me
i understand
its not like we're the best of friends anw.
but please la
don go ard saying i told ppl abt your love life
and pls. i really don mind you hating me
but i really wont go t the extent of telling everyone abt yer love life
fck it.
can everyone just burn in hell
fuck. fuckfuckfuckfuck
FUCK. damn it
i hate you. so much. i hate all of you
yeah fuck.
fuck.
my life is so fcking screwed.
damn it.

2004-09-22T11:23:00.000+08:00

these hands touched filthy people like.

mm. pam wrote that.
im innocent.
and pam's praying that this com'll break down
tsk. aheh. but i gave it so much love
it decided to switch on fer me
pam is staring at pictures
telling me who's cute and stuff
but i seriously dont care. HAH
and she's being stupid and childish.
and complaining abt why i usd t like that person
hah. and stop singing pam.
pam claims she has melodious sweet charming enchanting and a bird-catching voice.
i agree she has a bird catching voice. but nothing else
aheh. anw hah pam is crapping NONSENSE.
gosh. haha.
hmm. pam is behaving like a dog.
hah. stop that fcked up music! damn
its spoiling my preciousss ears. aheh.
lets recap today!
today is a highly boring day.
except fer pe.
cos we played VOLLEYBALL!
yay! hah. ain and fas were hilariouly hilarious
pam typed in ilovepam.blogspot.com
and she thought that someone had the url fer the blog
but sadly. NO. no one wanted that OH SO DISGUSTING url.
HAH.
okay lorh. pam is being STUPID. AND NONSENSICAL AGAIN.
tsk. i think someone's bro is sooo cute and hot.
mhm. quick quick download the video!
aheh/go away pam.
i said go away.
before i poke yer eyes
good. she wants t scoop my eyeballs out with an icecream scooper!
hah. i love brothers la.
so cute fer wot.

`get out right now.

2004-09-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

wahh fck.
some motherfuckers can be so dumbsies.
right ash?
yes!! -ash =))
okay. im gonna be outta this place in 5mins time
shall go and stare at more roxy stuff.

2004-09-21T15:01:00.000+08:00

hmm. lets recap today.
which is q hyper and funky
hhaha. started the day off with mass run.
argh. the blasted thing.
hmm then had ehh. science
could catch up a bit on atoms and wotever formulas la
aheh. malay was next. lalala. it was startiing t get boring alr.
was going off to sleepyland. yawns.
hmm the whole day didnt see eyecandy. did she even come?
but she should right? tday got prelims.
hmm. anw then had english then recess!
ate with jannah. and clique. then went with ash to collect worksheet
still owe the class 20 bucks
yeahs. then had alot of fun. made a lot of noise
then saw smth disturbing
seems as though she is very angry abt sth.
hmm. yeah had cme. we all were everywhere
totlly defy-ing mr ho's intsructions.
got class photo. pls i look retarded-er than ever
yucks. i can still remember the day
i was damn constipated. lalapokk.
aheh. then signed a lot of photos
and wrote a lot of stuf too
esp fer nicole ee.
I AM SMART. hmph.
hahaha. then then then ENGLISH AGAIN
the projector wasnt working.
oh drains.
haha. then after that had assembly.
played ard. and talked a lot.
shit . i forgot what i did for the past hour.
shatterpoo.
should be back now le
mom's gonna yell at me yet again
hmm anw to kwan
i dunno if you are reading this man
but chill yeah
things will be better. it'll change for the better alrights?
hahaha. take care.

[the world would be a better place without you.]

2004-09-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

kal ho naa ho.

i watched that movie yesterday. so moving.
cried buckets. sighhh. )):
hmm aman is just so sweet. i cant believe he sacrificed his love.
damn it. hmm.
anw. heard shocking news!
hahahha. but i still dont believe it . yucks.
i dont think she's changed please.
so idiotic. even may doesnt believe it.
oh drains.
hhhhahaa.
hmm. hannah the chio bu is here.
so chio. ((:
hahhaa.
am such a nice friend la. waiting fer wani t end science
hmm.
haha. lets recap.

tday. had assembly in the parade square.
heard someone fart damn loudly.
got told off by some councillor. hahha
then music was entertaining.
hmm. i love TROMBONE.
aheh. then had english. did my overdue hw.
pe played basketball.
talked to xiling fer a while
hmm. on the way down. lalalalalala.
i like that song.
hmm. recess saw eyecandy la
she's just so fcking chio.
iloveher.
then had malay. english again. finished two compre-s
maths was productive.
now waitng fer wani. ((:

hmm.

cant believe it.
thats madness.

when i close my eyes i see you
when i open my eyes i serach for you
you are my love
you are my life
and i wont let you get away
i'll love you till the day i die...
and after that
for i'll never stop loving you.

she may be yours in this lifetime,
but promise me that in the next lifetime,
when there is a new beginning
promise me that you'll let her be mine
promise me..

-picked frm kal ho naa ho. some changes la cos i cant remember the whole thing.

[i am over you.]

2004-09-18T19:43:00.000+08:00

yoohoo!

this is for the girl who's depressed
i love you okay?
and dont get affected by that ubersucker
hmph. and i hope that you'll concentrate on yer upcoming o's
cos i dont want you to give up on your dreams
6pts. thats what you promised me.
yeah. so try your very best
cos yer not gonna let this uberfucker tear your dreams apart
if youre gonna let her do it
i wont. i'll do whatever it takes to get you into sajc.
cos you mean the world to me
take care k?
-hugs. and if you need anything tell me
phone me msg me atg. i'll always be here
((:
put that specially in red. yer favourite color
jiayou!
((: cheer up!!

okay! tday is good!
followed mom t polyclinic
god it took us like 4 hours??!!
then we went t bugis!!!
hahahha. went t eat at banquet
then saw ms azilah!!!!!
hahahha xl got jealous.
hmm. hahahhah.
hmm then mom went t buy cloth fer hari raya!!!!
so fun!!!
hmm then we went t bugis junction!!!
bought this chio bimbo bag at projectshop!!!!
i love my mommy.
hahhhaa. then went home!!!
read lotsa harry potter!!!
then went online.
heh. apparently someone knows the damn sadistic reason
why i am sooo happy
fck la. i know i shouldn
but i cant help myself
hee. -laughs gleefully
god forbid! -slaps self
i really should go and burn in hell fer this shit!!
hahahhaa. goshhh...
im all smiles now.
hmm. but i miss braces boy ler.
sighh.
((: oh wells.
hmm.

[you cant deflate this happiness.]

2004-09-17T16:49:00.000+08:00

thats so sweet handsome boy

sigh. today was supposed t be hyper!
but then again
things seems to break me
ohwells. i shant be sadsad.
damn.
i told myself t get back on track
and i try to stay focused in class
at least that's accomplished
then i get home. start t think abt things that dont matter
like fck. i cant get a grip on myself
sigh. i wish nicky was here t talk sense into me.
and now her phone is confiscated. )):
sigh. its been hard.
ohwells. piano was shit. i am expecting a fail.
tday was good.
ohwells..

[imissyou?]

2004-09-16T18:31:00.000+08:00

i was born in this world to love you

argh. i wrote a longlonglong verse fer handsome boy
hmm. parents cant stop BICKERING. tsktsk.
anw i shall put up the thing abt handsome boy
i just cant resist handsome boy la.
so cute. hmm.
lets recap today.
which is thursday.
after the run went fer d&t
didnt do much work.
then went fer recess
malay was napping session fer all of us. (:
had test then those who finish can rest
slept fer quite long
mhm. then got maths. and then science
by the time science came i was hyper ler.
hmm. kept bullying kris-susilo.
ahaha. my chio friend. hollarhs.
yepps. then lunch! went to photocopy things
with my chio girlfriend ashikin ((:
i love ashikin. yup.
then went ard school. ate with ash
and talked to kwan sp joody esh and thia hwee boon
then went to the library! took one big round to get t the library
a lot of funny things happen ler.
hmm. i dont recall borrowing any book from the library lei
why they say i have overrrdue book?!
damn. hmph.
anw yeah my gf was kind enough to borrow fer me the books
-hugs. i love my gf larh.
then saw aishah and adilah! i love those two jrs.
so sweet. they act wanted t spray whipped cream into our mouths?!
haha ended up spraying em onto our hands.
so yummy. i love whipped cream
i dunno if its fattening
but shall binge whipped cream one day
aheh.
then yeah me and gf went back class
was singing slide along side!
haha this time with the actions
and nicole was soooo disgusted la
but i was more disgusted by her
she was rolling balls
literally rolling balls la
haha she cindy liling and nicky.
all were rolling colored plasticine balls
hahahah. so cute ler
then nicole said i dont interact well with my 'audience'!
so sad. )):
uh-huh. then me and ash ate nice yummy food our jrs gave
food like apple crumbles and apple crap and strawberry things
so nice and yummy! ((:
yeah. ate in the toilet ler. argh. hahaha
then ain was being disgusting and everything
and we were totally laughing like mad ppl and stuff.
yeah hahahah then went into com lab!
haha. i saw the pretty jr and i guess she freaked out or sth
so cute. and pretty ((:
HOLLARHS. ((:
hmm. the atmosphere in the com lab was... tense.
yeah. tense. hmm. hahahha jannah rocks my world la
the best((:
thanks huh. ((((((:
-beams beams beams.
aheh. then vivi-anNICky happily left her bag in the class lar
and it was locked
-strangles nicky.
so went to get key from oh-so-hunky mr ho (:
yeps. haha then pei my gf fer a while then me and nicky went off.
hmm. today rocked la basically.
but i long to see handsome boy
UP CLOSE.
cos i wanna taste handsome boy's breath.

we were so close

yet we are worlds apart

and i just cant reach out to you

this is getting frustrating.

[so near yet so far away.]

[i love the one who makes the most noise.]

2004-09-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

16 NOVEMBER
concert at victoria concert hall
brought to you by crescent's own symphonic band
tickets at $15 only
and all proceeds to our band fund
your support is fully appreciated
thank you!
and if you need tickets,
pls do not hesitate to approach any of our band members
((:

2004-09-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

come here handsome boy

wahh. ((:
today rained so heavily!
wonder how wani ash fas and arfah swim
ahehahehaheh.
anw today is actually a hyper day ler!
just that just now was uber bored
and lazy to type
anw. lets start from the beginnin
me and wani were uber uber hyper la! ((:
so happy.
anw yeah then kept singing slide along side
cant get that song outta my head head head
SLIDE ALONG SIDE YEAH BABY THATS RIGHT
IM GONNA SHOW YOU THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE
hahahahaha. ((: so funkyyy!
ehh. yepps. and we were totally dancing to it la
and wani has got my two fingers on cheek-twis disease
haha so bimbotic.
we are the slide along side clique
consists of me and wani only.
am trying to get vivi-anNICky in too((:
yepps. then after cs ah. had history
msneo was funny today ((:
yeah. skived mr ho's long lecture
then went back class to play. wait fer malay t start
ehh. yeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE TEY!
so cute. ((:
then had malay. and then maths remedial
waited ard for a while. talked to that girl ((:
then started t go off. then kris my pretty chio friend came
i love herr. (: hollarhs.
heh. ohwells. saw pretty ppl at the sch gate
but i couldnt look. cos i wasnt fit to look at high class ppl
neh. i dont care alr la
they can think what they wanna think
they can say what they wanna say
i cant care.
if nt i wont pass! and get into a good class nxt yr.
sigh. anw im gonna take EXTRA ART!
yay. ((: i love art la
and its NOT COS OF MS GOH
aheh. anw yeah. then cindychan came
walked to mrt station with her
its been a long time since ive walked home with her
kinda missed my hydrochan.
hmm. )):
then argh. saw pretty ppl again la. hmm.
ohwells. should stop callin em that
later they come and beat me upsidedown
oh sorry. insideout. yeaps
argh. im gonna sneeze
sniffs. ilovehandsomeboy
argh. im gonna fail -----
like -----
ooorrrgghh. yeah. damn. i shd stop stoning
and wastin time
pfft. i love philton.

[so near. yet so far away.]

2004-09-15T11:47:00.000+08:00

this is my confession handsome boy
but i dont know where to start
i love you handsome boy
and i dont know why
is it your braces
or is it your smile
i just dont know why handsome boy
just why i fell for you

argh. i love handsome boy
gosh. why is handsome boy so cute?
and why cant i get handsome boy out of my mind?
i want handsome boy to be mine

[blame it on this mad craving of mine.]

2004-09-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

this mad craving to lick handsome boy.

hahha handsome boyboy.
im so contradicting
but who cares. i still love handsome boy.
ilovehandsomeboy.
today is a boring day
yeah.
started out with share a thought
yucks. :(( but then got bird drop from the sky
hahah so funny.
then got pe!
yay haha played volleyball. i totally cannot play larh
hah. then got recess.
read book. so guai.
hmm now got cs. wahh.
today am gonna call cousin nana
and talk abt handsome boy some more.
cos i love handsome boy.

2004-09-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

haha i think tong is like wat kinda cute la
told val to cheer up
then she said q a lot of things ler.
i was q amused. (:
you know me. im amused by everything
but seriously lar.
i think tong is what kinda cute
serious. aint jokin i swear

anw just now was in com lab
and sp told me sth! SHHHHH
hahahah its like how fckin amusing larh those two?!
anw yeah sp dont be sad
get overrr herrr!! (:
hahahah. goshhh. faints.
stayed in class fer a while. then went off
hahah ehh.went out to tanglin macs with vivi-anNICky
ehh. then bought chocolate. two small puny chocolates.
like wtf?! hah totally seow-ness
anw then went into a toy shoppp
all the things so girly and chio
i wanna buy em all. ((:
yeahhs. then went home. talked to SOMEONE online
that girl is so funny la
haha she knows who's handsome boy! shhhhh k?
hahaha. anwww. yeah. tarantado ka.
jologs.
pfft. finally got to learn filipino.
ahha. fck me if im wrong.

im just so totally in love with handsome boy la!
only saw him once but like how far was he huh.
argh i couldnt see clearly
but nvm. still got tmr to see
handsome boyboy.
ohmygod. what if i dont get to see handsome boy?!
ill just die of depression larh.hmph.

and i love aishah's oh so cute brother
heyy dont quit snyo larh
haha then how do i get to see you??!!
so cute.
i wanna pinch yer cheeks.

[im in love with handsome boy?]

2004-09-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

argh. fuck friendster!
damn. wont load.
anw haha i love school.
school school school.
ohhh lame. anwww.
hahahahaha

hmm vivi-anNICky and me are sad ppl.
sigh. yesterday the both of us just sat and stoned
and stoned and stoned.
we are time wasters.
sigh. SIGH.
its a sad sad situation.
sighhhh.
nooo should be a tense tense situation
even msgoh doesnt understand why things turned out this way
hmm. she told me to give it time
but i dont think time'll heal all wounds now
i think it'll take a bloody miracle t make things like before.

i just cant help drowning
in this damn depression.

ohwells.
slide along side girl

[ilovehandsomeboy.]

2004-09-14T13:09:00.000+08:00

handsome boy! ((:

so cute and hot and sexy
ehh today was q boring
but yeah. happy la. cos was thinkin of handsome boy most of the time
hahahha.
kayyy. erh. yeah rained q heavily
and nicky was being childish
so we decided to play in the rain. ((:
so dumb.
yup. i love nicky.
hahaha. now supposed to have journal writing?!
yucks.

hmm. i just realised
yesterday was the day
friday the 13th
LOL.

and friendster wont load.

SLIDE ALONG SIDE.

[move your naughty body]

2004-09-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

evil play things

i wanna go and strangle ms goh laa.
what kinda topic
'reality tv is a social evil'
what kinda crap?!
anw hahah yup i was talkin to sue
ahems. not sue as in sue but my REAL cousin sue
yesh. also known as nana
anw. yeah! hahaha we were talkin abt handsome boy!
me: i saw handsome boy today! and he's got braces lei nana!! oh my gosh! handsome boy looks cuter now that he's got braces
nana: oh my gosh really?! handsome boy is gonna look so cute! oh my gosh!
me: yeah hahha his braces totally rock my world la! so cute!!
nana: oh my gosh. i can imagine him! he's so not geeky anymore right?! and i heard that he's even got himself a girlfriend!
me: yes oh my god im so proud of handsome boy! and i sooo envy his gf!nana: ahhh!!! me too!! i wanna be handsome boy's gf.. sooo hot! its so hard for us to get such a cute guy like handsome boy! oh man... i really envy his gf...
me: yeah me tooooo...
me and nana turn and look at each other.
both: rolls eyes. and starts laughing
AHEH. hahahhaha so funny
anw hee. today was the start of school
i totally didnt wanna wake up
pooh. poopoo.
hmm. ehh. went ard school w nicky
and she happily didnt bring her badge la
nehnehpokk.
hahhah ehh then got music. ((:
i wanna go acjc now. join band and choir
and i wanna get a music scholarshipppp
hmms. then had english
then pe. mrs heng didnt come
and i did smth stupid
banged my shoulder on the metal bar thing
argh. hurts like crap la
hmm was tryin to learn indon((:
can speak a bit now
with a bit of accent
shall practice hard on it.
hmm had early recess
-whispers whispers
TALKIN ABOUT PSYCHIC, GIRLS
heh then went up to class
had malay
got reprimanded by mdm kartinie. ((:
then eng again. managed to finish letter of complaint
then maths. was good. ((:
i love soh cah toa.
toa cah soh.
whatever la.
then went down fer band meeting
then walked ard stayed a while with nicky and cheryl
then went off with wani ash and nicky
hahah actually wanted to go toilet
q urgent la
then realised that smth was sooo wrong
-whispers whispers
hmm then waited a while then went to staff toilet instead
went home after that
browssed through ikea book with mom
so fun ((:bonding session
hmm. im sooo into handsome boy.

handsome boys limited edition now comes with hot and funky braces
batteries not included.
this advertisement was brought to you by playboys.com
where evil playthings come to life.
play me boyfriend.
winks

[baddewies.]

2004-09-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

wahh fuck. not happy the get lost la.
rip off your fcking head la
my blog. my world
i say what i wanna say
and if you dont like it
please
i think there are other more interesting websites that you can surf
beotch.
mother fckin uberfuckwit.

and you. go and burn in hell.

[go away]

2004-09-09T13:44:00.000+08:00

wahh fck. i cant wait fer school to reopen. cos i havent studied. im so slack i cant take it laaa. left my fcking history book in class and since the theft thing the class is now locked. damn damn. hmph. anw. lets recap! yesterday got band ah. hmm talking to nicky now. and she is soooo high. gosh. haha. anw then band had sectionals. and me and xl were very pissed with some ppl larh. urghs. hmm then moodswing fer a while only. A WHILE ONLY. hahah then had break! went to macs againnn. ((: ate the same thing. i can just die of eating macs la. haha. then me wani ash nicole ivy and xingtong left and waited fer a bus. but then we waited and waited till 1125. hahahahah then we hailed a cab like finally last minute. the uncle wont take 6 ppl ler. then suddenly behind got bus hahah. we got out of the cab then i think the uncle damn pissed with us already. idiotts. hahahha then came back la. saw xl. and the midi picture is what kinda chio la. ((: heh. hmm then had combine. was fun la. played doraemon. and castle in the sky? yeah. haha. screwed the tbone solo part. :(( anw. then band end saw xl. then she asked me if im gg later. haha i didnt know the tbone thing was lst night. so dumb. haha. then went home. hmm. got ready fer the concert! haha. at the concert went in alone cos xl was late. hmm i love the tbone section. totally motivated by the concert. ((: all the solo parts goes to clarinet ad flute. but why not tbone? we produce good and melodious sound too. hahahha okay. i shall be more enthu in tbone section. am so proud to be in the section where the instrument is the only intsrument in the world that has a slide. and can play any sound. hahaha tbone rocks. we are hyper yes. because thats what we are. and you can do nothing to change us. ((: lala.
[imissyou.]

2004-09-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

rrah. am printing sth and the whole desk shook!
like the whole thing gonna break liddat
aheh. nicky i wrote a testi fer you alr.

hmm. any plans pls inform me abt it kayy. ((:

[cant wait.]

2004-09-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

haha. i just picked moi nose and wiped the access shit on her shirt
hahah doesnt make any difference though
cos she havent bathed yet
bloody. hahahhaha
anw. am at her house right now.
am gonna watch the cinderella story!
hahah. my other cousin just commented on my english
aheh. not like his so pro liddat.
life's good man. nothing's been bothering me
nth's been affecting me
hee. cos they say that she's no good
and that i shdnt brood uver what happened
haha. yeah. i realised
hahahahhah. nehhnehhpokk.
anw. i love nicky nicky.
heh.

[im late. for reality.]

2004-09-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

she just rocks my life.

hee. pam told me smth to check out. and i must say she is just the bomb. ((: yeah. anyways. haha today was a totally laughing day. came to school! yay. had history lecturrre. but i did not bring my history books. heh. ooh! superstarrs playing. anw haha yeahh. nicky came came. and i love nicky nicky. yeahhhh. then went to look for mrs lim but she happily didnt come. nehh. haha then went for band. i love band so much. serious. it's like part of my life. ((: then went to macs fer breakfast. went up to xl's class to inform her where we were going. and were trying to signal to her and everything. but totally cannot make it!!! hahah. i wanted to type smth but nvm. hee. ehh then went macs! ate. then cabbed down. hmm. had band. played a lot of songs and fell in love with this particular piece. i love that piece. oh we're playing doraemon fer concert. ((: yay. hahahhaha okay then went home. with ash. the real ash. hahahahah okay. then had a lot of fun la. were totally bitching abt that particular someone. haha jangan terasa sua babe. wa caya sama lu. anw haha i didnt mean what i tagged k. i just got too carried away. really. hahah okay. now im backkkk at homeeeee. and im so hyper. heh. im finally over her. hmm. oh yeah. to you: heyyy. i didnt mean it k. haha i got over her already la. seriously. so you dont worry kayys? ilu lots. ((: -hugs. yeahh. hmm. im in love with you. and only you. ((:

[i didnt mean it.]
[it's you and only you.]

2004-09-05T20:29:00.000+08:00

footprints on the sand
washed away by the sea in an instant
just like our love
faded away in a blink of an eye
whatever we had is lost
and we'll never find it again

hmm. to the passerby kid who tagged wani's blog
oei. you damn free what
call yerself a friend
what kind of a friend are you if you insult yer friend?
and stop being such a fcking coward
put down yer name if you wanna criticise
if you have the guts to comment
do have the guts to put yer name down
stop being such a bitch
no one in the world is perfect
yer not perfect either
so stop thinking that yer so great
cos wani's a nice person
she's a very nice person
and if you insult her again
i'll insult you back on behalf of wani.
yeah. -nods.
then i'll call on wani's fan club to insult you back
hmph.

today was funky
went to sentosa alone
waited q a while fer my cousins t come
hmm. sun tanned! but no sun lei
it was q cloudy
hmm. walked on the sand
thinking abt what's happening to me
and how screwed i am
hmm. oh wells.
anw. i love vivian
she's such a nice dotter
and a nice and chio sister
hmm. thats why she's nicky!
heh. slide along side baby!! ((:
ahhaha.
heyy. vivian. dont get too affected k
you really deserve someone better
and be straight!
hahah im always here for you if you need a shoulder t cry on k
((: thats what royal sisters are for
mhm. -nods

[paris and NICky hilton.]

2004-09-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

liyana is damn tickled by everything

LOL.
HAHAHAHA
heard it and my first reaction was HAHAHAHAHA.
OH GOSH. ARE YOU SERIOUS???!!!
LIKE WHOA.
hee. hee hee hee hee.
anw vivian thinks its smth
haahhahahaha me too.
but nvmnvm.
it was kinda expected la
vivian guessed it first though
hee. -muffles laughter.

okay. anw today we sewed!
yay. haha in the morning complained to xl abt things
then then then then went up to class
to sew. and i dunno how to sew la
so hopeless
so me and dotter ended up cutting cloth and talking to teachergoh
hmm. haha then went for band a while
then went off to town with vivi-ann
((: and chun. she's so violent.
hmph. walked ard looking fer food
then ended up in ljs.
lala. hahahaahhahahah okay i still cant stop laughing laaaa
i mean. its really kinda funny
-muffles laughter.
okayyy. my cousin wants to type sth.

Yo. hahhaa my cuz is mad.she carn stop laffing.it's q funny larh.coz ever since i got here she has been laffing lik a mad idiot. hahaaa then she told me e story. hahahhs.i feel e same way too larh. it's q funny n evryting.

yeah. haha that was my dumb cousin
anw. oh wells.
it sounds as though i forced her so say it!!!
nehhpokk.
ANW.
i wish all the best fer the new couple. ((:

shall put the slide along side lyrics.
cos vivi-ann and i share that song.
mother and dotter whatt. ((:hmm.

[we wanted to eat at -marriot-. with $4.30. squeals.
get it vivi-ann?]

hahahahahah.
hmm.

LOL
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LOL.

LOL.

HEE.

OKAY LIYANA SHUTUP.

HEE.

2004-09-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

hmm went towning with vivian after school today
to try to forget and not be affected by this thingy
haha. hmm went we came out waiting fer 111 to come
vivian saw her eyecandy
and she wanted to go back school
haha in the end never cos she wanted to be str8.
hmm haha then took 111 to town.
then we couldnt decide where to goto cine or to ps
hmm in the end went ps to eat tako???!!
yeah haahahhaha what kinda lame
then went to ehhh back to cine yeahhh.
haha my sense of direction rocks rocks
hmm went to cine cos vivian wanted to see herrrr.
in the end dont have la
so we ended up walking to heeren
and saw many girly girly things
i wanna be str8 too!!!hmm.
then went back to cine
was kinda depressed at that time so we went back
now im back
trying to figure out my life
and trying to figure out a way to make the situation better
BUT THEN AGAIN there's no point
so im just trying to figure out my life.hmm. i hate myself

we shouldnt have been together
cos if we werent
this thing wouldnt happen.
a time out? yeah i couldnt understand it well
cos i was so worried abt you
bugging you? okay oh wells maybe i was
cos i wanted to know the reasons
attituding? maybe cos you were giving me attitude first
break up and be sisters?you were trying to tell me that?really?
then why were you pushing me away?
mentally weak huh. maybe i am
no one in the world is perfect
go away?stay away?do you really want it?
we were friends to become enemies in the end?
okay. if you want it.hate me for all i care
i dont give a fck anymore
you hate me? be my enemy?okay. but you as my enemy?no
sue as my enemy? no
germaine as my enemy? no
cos i really treasure you guys.
assume everything you wanna assume
but you guys'll always stay as my friends.

[im speaking from my heart.]
[im sorry for being such a bad girlfriend.]

2004-09-03T13:39:00.000+08:00

im here to blame myself for this thing

look. whatever i said was just in a fit of anger
and im sorry if i hurt you
and no i so did nt glare at you
but if you hate me its okay
cos i totally dont matter to you
anw. your happiness is all i seek
and if hating me makes you happy then let it be
i have no say in this.
and to sue if i ever glared at you
i dunno when i did that
but im sorry.
yup.

anw. vivian just turns me on.
hahahah and she's sitting beside me
haha
anw ive got vivian as my dotter!
oh gosh. no wonder she's so chio
cos she's got my genes
hahaha kidding
yvonne is my son-in-law
and wani too AND cindy tang
cos apparently she is so greeeeeedy
and she's such a bloody player
hahaha
kayy.
now supposed to have history
but dear ms neo didnt come
yup so now we're in the the com lab!!!!
((: yay.

im sorry for all the things i said
i guess we're just not meant to be

[muchacha.]
points up. that is vivian's lame-o line
and this color is vivian choose one
so gay.
tsktsk. -shakes head

[i wished the situation could be better.]

2004-09-03T12:55:00.000+08:00

its not that i hate you
i really dont want the whole lot of us to be enemies
really.
look at my actions?
what actions?
look at yours first.
the day we broke up. what were your actions?
i was so fckin worried about you
but did you care? apparently not
nonono
okay that was vivian AGAIN.
okay anw.
i know you hate me
i get the fact
and i shall accept it
but i just dont understand
why do you want to make the situation worse.
whywhywhy.
vivian yet AGAIN.
i mean. we can still be friends
but apparently you didnt want it to happen
im so sorry this happened to us
after all the times we've been through
after all days we spent
after all the nights we talked.
okay that sounded dirty. vivian's disgusted.
ohwells. forget about it.
byebye.
uhm vivian.
yeah. i really didnt know this kinda thing will happen
but as vivian and many more ppl told me,
time will heal all wounds
and i hope it'll be the same between us
im sorry. really.

am i going to let this thing affect me?
i dunno. seriously i dont.
argh. -bites vivian.
and what did i say to my friends?
that i dumped you?
haha. okay. why dont you ask me yourself
before you start assuming that whatever ppl told you were facts

so ASSUME NOTHING.
like you told me to.
assume nothing girl.

[imissyourperfumesmell.]

eeks. that was lame but its true!
i really miss her perfume smell.
hah. guess i wont be breathing it in ever again.

points to previous paragraph. i like that paragraph a lot
makes me sound dumb
duh. <= vivian.
vivian thinks i sound like i miss her a lot
but i do.
and she thinks i'll embarrass myself
but im not the type who contradicts and tell ppl other things when im feeling the other way.
nods- =))
vivian.
yeah.

[severed ties.]

why did we end up this way?
whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
hmm. nods
haha imitating my oh so dumb yet chio dotter. ((;
okay fine. daughter.
yeah.

[im too good 4 uu!]

that was vivian YET AGAIN.
she's being egoistic.

[lets go back to the beginning.]

yeah. lets.

2004-09-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

too serious too soon

i want the answers to the questions i asked you
why did you just flare up at me like that
i didnt do anything wrong
i just dunno why you dont want us to be friends
i dunno why you are making the situation worse
i dunno if you hate me
i just dont understand why you do
but i just want you to know that i wont ever hate you
no matter what

thanks jan, ash, viv they all
for giving me encouragement
hey. whatever happened was so yesterday
and there's no point thinking about it anymore
so ive gotten back in track
and going on with my life
im just waiting for the day when we make up and be friends again
cos thats what i really want

ohwells. i couldnt sleep last night
and im tired.
-shrugs

2004-08-31T14:58:00.000+08:00

the nehnehpokk lost his balls.

hmm. im bored.
ohwells.
i dunno what to blog
im soooo tired.
tiredtiredtiredtired.
im in a mood to blog
but im gonna crap a lot

neverdidiguessthisthingwouldhappentous

idunnowhatwentwrong

nooneknowshowimfeelingrightnow

ineedsomeonetounderstandmysituation

butseemslikenoonecan

idontevenknowwhatimthinking

idontevenknowwhatiwant

iwanttothinkstraightagain

iwannaturnstraightagain

idontwannaleadthislifeanymore

ihatethewayimlivingmyliferightnow

whydoialwaysendupthinking

wewillhavethechanceofgettingbacktogether?

whyamistillhoping?

whycantijustacceptthefact?

whyamisoscrewed?

whycantithinkstraight?

whyamilikethis?

whydoistillhavehopeinus?

whycantijustacceptthefactthatyouhavegottenoverme?

whycantijustacceptthefactthatyoudontlovemeanymore?

whycantijustacceptthefactwearenotmeanttobe?

whycantmybrainjustfckingdigestthisinformation?

donthateme.

donteverhateme.

2004-08-31T14:10:00.000+08:00

ohwells. today was a gray day again
heh. uhm came to school and didnt do atg but stare at the ceiling
shows how fcking bored i was
then had aces thingy
hmm. then had house thingy
and i totally had no idea i was nominated
rrahaha. what kind la please
anw. then had time before recess
so went to talk to teacher goh again
thank god for her existence
then had ehhh. recess. didnt eat. starved again
had concert. i wasnt in the mood fer partay-ing
but thanks to jannah i was okay.
hahah then i was high again
cheered for teacher goh with my oh so hoarse voice
what kinda funky
then went back to pri school.
yay ((: saw so many cute little boyboys and girlgirls.
they all remember me but i dont remember them? hah so stupid
yeahh. now im at home
ohwells. shall blog and blog till i die or smth haha

[not in the right state of mind.]

2004-08-30T19:05:00.000+08:00

ilostmygirlfriendonouronemonthanniversary.
ohwells. itcantbehelped
liketheysayit
toomuschhappinessalwaysoverflowsintotearsofsorrow.
butiaintgonnacry
cosshetaughtmehowtobestrong

todayisaverysaddayandimdepressed
seriously
ididntevencryforjoywhenigotana1formyliterature
hmmmaybecosofwhathappened
butiaintgonnaletitaffectme
imtryingtohelpbutitsnousecosshespushingmeaway
andtheresnothingicando
mydayiskindagreyishtoday
andimtoolazytospaceoutmywords
ohwells

lets recap today
cried abit with qixin and judy
when i found out what two boxes of panadols can do to your body.
was really worried for her
anyways went for music and they were watching a movie
and it was really touching
and i cried cos of the movie and for her too
yeah then had english
i wasnt enthusiastic at all
then had pe
pe was fun cos i played with susilo
haha kris was susilo and i was taufik hidayat
had so much fun pretending we were pro badminton players
but i totally cannot make it
haha but pe really brightened my day
thanks kris -hugs
yeah then had recess i wasnt hungry
so i played with my food
then went up to read a book!
im so guai
hah then had malay then english
talked to teacher goh about things
and she was really understanding and everything
yeah.hmm.
then had maths?i didnt pay attention at all
i was sleeping the whole bloody time
ohwells. then went down to find teacher goh to talk to her again
i needed advice
an adults point of view
cos they have sensible thinking
atleast more sensible than mine
she tried guessing who the hell i was talking about
but i acted blur
hah.then had lunchie
withvivian.todaywasavivianhangoutday
wholedaywithher
ohwells.then went to town with vivian ex-sister in law and ex-niece
yeah.wenttolidotogetlotsathingsdone
vivian and i were trying on primary school clothes
so fun!
hahah. aiyah. i lazy to type can.
drank coffee
ate four hotdogs with vivian
then went home.
alone. seemed so empty.
seemed that something was amiss.
ohwells.
imbored.
and im not suicidal.
cso you taught me not to be
and even though we're not on talking terms,
i still remember that you hate suicidal people
yeah. and now thanks to you im not.
((: you know who you are.
thanks.

ohwells. suchtragedyhasbefallenme.
haha. i shall study hard. and pass my lit with fcking flying colors.

we were born to live not born to die.

god gave us life.

he gave us the gift of living.

so appreciate it.

cos life is meant to be appreciated.

every second in life is precious.

treasure it while you can.

and dont think of dying

cos a lifetime in hell is SO NOT FUN.

seriously.

[TIMEOUT!]

2004-08-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

i lost my girlfriend today.

i am seriously screwed.
i lost my girlfriend!
oh wells.

yesterday was aad.
yay. -rollseyes.
anw came to school late late!
didnt have atg to wear. cos i was late?
and i couldnt iron my clothes?!
hmm. yeah then came to school changed to polo shirt
yeah. had band thingy. crescent was a good band
uhh. a good marching band.
yeaps. hahah wanqi and i had a good time wearing our oh so chio sunglasses
hee. im a maffia gang leader. so funky.
my big gucci specs rock socks!
yay! hmm. then went off with sue and sampan
hee. had a funky time.
then someone told me liu was there.
gosh! i was soooooo fcking excited can??!!
heh. then went down
and guess what. liu was there.
he came over and talked to me!!!
he's so gorgeously hot and tall and tanned.
i felt like biting him.
hmm. hahah then sue went to take pictures of him
it was kinda dumb la.
so i pulled liu and we took a picture together! with his friend la
yeah. so fun.
then had dance workshop thing.
i was sooo high. danced with farah
so funny. heh.
kept getting the steps mixed up. but we managed
rrahahha. okay. i think jan is a great dancer
we should all go dirty dance or smth. ((;
cos jan makes me high.
haha. oh wells.
ilovemygirlfriend.

[am i the right one for you?]

2004-08-24T20:44:00.001+08:00

postponing piano exam cos i cant sing
damn voice. rrah. -tugs hair.
i cant stop coughing fck la.
i sound like an old ah ma.
)): cries.
anw. i heard! i heard that ppl born in feb are most prone to cancerrrr
rrah. thats why i am cancerous.
hahahaha seow.
anw today. came early to school to sleep.
hmm. then mass run penny ang picked on me
but i have mc. hhahhahaha. -sticks out tongue
nehnehnipoopoo.
then had. science. i amazingly didnt fail science
like. WOW. seriously.
then had. malay. slept a little bit
then english slept a little bit again
then had recess! yay. saw eyecandy.
then ehhhhh. had cme
practiced share a thought.
it was a fcking disaster. hah.
mr ho was blur. i saw him yawning.
shows that he's bored. oh wells.
then came in our english teacher
i wonder why she's an english teacher when she doesnt even know how to spell
'writing', 'thing' and many more things. hah
okay then had assembly
practiced share a thought. again.
rrah. tmr is share a thought.
i am sooo gonna die of maluation.
nehpokk.
after school i was totally horni-fied.
cos of judy and qixin
heh. blush. then ehh
played with vivian's sweet bottle
got the pacifier
then i put it into my shirt and make it as though its my nipple.
hahahahaha and i made pam vivian and oggy so disgusted
then i was saying that if i have a daughter i would call her vagina
ohh fck. i shouldnt be saying these things.
rrah. i am a porn show. hahah cant believe im so disgustingg.
mhm. then vivian pam and me wanted to go haagen dazs
with 5, 4 and 20 dollars respectively
nehpokks la. then went to find dii and sue.
but sue didnt want to go so dii came.
then decided not to go cos vivian was late fer piano
and pam feels poor.
so yup happily went home.
nehh. i hate exams.

[bad conscience is so naughty.]

2004-08-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

2004-08-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

she's so high.

today was a nice day.
really. came to school late cos i went to get medicine
rrah. i hate hospitals
nehhpokks.
actually i love hospitals lei. haha what kinda contradicting.
anw. yeah. then today
ehhh. coughed a lot la
school time nothing much happened
then after school went tiong
to get aad things with sp and milu.
bought cookies for myself
to chew on and choke and die
then went back school
went for band
i love my section. noo. make it my mid-tbone section.
consisting of xiling nurul and me.
rrah. how to survive band w/o these ppl
sigh. haha then xl and i went to look for di and carolyn
they were doing the banner
and i think its sooo chio.
mhm. haha. carolyn was so excited
she talked to mr lee for 2 mins
and she said it was the longest time she ever talked to mr lee
and me and xl was like -raises eyebrows
haha cos we talked to mr lee wayyyy longer that
heh. then went in. played concerto.
and big fun. shrek.
hmm. then pack up me and xl went to find di and carolyn again
haha. di piggy backed me to teacher goh's art room
cos i was wearing socks no shoes.
haha so funny. then got discussion
playing for aad le.
hmm. then went home.
yup. basically today kinda rocked la
and whats up with my keyboard
fuck. it wontt let me type properly.
tsk.
hmm. i miss girlfriend.

[aheh. still cant believe it.]

2004-08-22T13:02:00.000+08:00

Seharum bunga yang menggoda
Sekadar di pandang usah di puja
Kau pasti tak percaya
Kasihku bukan untukmu sayang
Tiada kusangka kau sungguh kejam
Kau rampas segalanya yang kau dendam
Namun takkan bahgia kehidupanmu
Bila bunyi bersatu
Kau milikku
Pulangkan cinta hatiku
[hentikanlah menghantuiku]
pulangkanlah padaku
[Kupulangkan resah hidupmu]
Yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku
[Bebaskanlah maafkan daku oh kasih]
Tiada termaaf yang di sini
Kau ragu degupan hatiku ini
Akan ku jejakimu ke mana jua
Hingga akhir masa sayang

i like the song lyrics.
its a revengeful song.
OST of pontianak.
check it out man.

hmm. nothings been going on these days
my throats getting better though
and i cant believe it!!!
hahah looks at cindychan
hmm. private joke.
nehhh. banner looks okay.
okay only. not brilliant.
hmm. things are definately on the brighter side nowadays

yeah. been thinking about a lot of things

oh wells. shall update properly soon

things are not so happening ler.

[if i had one wish,i'd wish for more wishes.]

2004-08-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

tsk. i hate you.
stoopid daniella.
stoopid abbigail.
im gonna slap you tmr
and poke yer mouth so that you'll feel pain
hmph. cos the dentist is gonna pull yer teeth out tmr.
mwahahahaha.
mmm. good.
and this has got nothing to do with any stc person you idiot!!!
better dont get me into trouble.
i'll kill you if you do.
hmph. idiott.

today is ehh. 19 august.
6 days with CHEWBECCA.
HMM. I WONDER WHO IT IS HUH.
tskkk.
i am very pissed off with you.
and i want my 99 roses and my lamborghini next year
hmph. idiott.
nehh. no mood to blog
but i realised that she remembered the day we got together.
cos dear CHEWBECCA told me. hmm. I WONDER WHO AGAIN.
tsk. idiot!!!!!!!
anw yest had fever
nehh. almost died-ed of hotness.
rrah. then sweet chewbecca sent me home. as usual.
hmph. hah today took train with chewbecca.
and went home with her too.
hmm.
chewbecca had her teeth filled.
haha she's so cute
she even paid fer the cab fare to jurong east int.
and my lemon tea.
how sweet of chewbecca.
fck friday the 13th la.
tsk. you purposely one right?!
always like this to me.
insensitive idiot.

[play me.]

2004-08-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

hmm. so long since ive blogged
nehh. nothing much happening except fer common test and ehh. that thing
haha fridaythe13th.loveyou.
okay then hmm lets see
yest crammed the last bits of info fer lit and fer the first time the question we predicted came out heh.
everyone was grinning like mad when the teacher gave out the qn paper
rrahhaaha. okay then today had history make up
me and che were totally not paying attention.
she was reading books and dropping things
and i was busy laughing at her and msging YOU.
youyouyouyouyou. loveyousomuch.rrah.
tired of living in a social denial! nehh hahaha.
okay anw had band
played fieforniek. and me and wani are in charge of writing the storyline
cos we were too enthu about it.
anw haha mrs chua was veryvery nice.really.
we played so many wrong notes but she didnt scold k.
she was so nice.
anw then played concerto d-amore during break
with the KLARINETTES, TRUMPETS, EUPHONIUM and the TUBA.
did i forget anyone? haha okay
and priscilla from perc too
ahahah cos she helped us clap
we're so hopeless can?all got no sense of timing
esp wani rrahahahha.
cos she keeps playing the wrong things.
haha okay after that went up the library to study with wani
but we could not help ourselves from looking down at people then
cindy channy came up
went down to get wani a drink. mhm.
then went home cos someone was in deep trouble.
hmm. that girl is too honest.
anw went home with sue sampan <= i dunno her name! ppl call her sampan
hahah okay and wani and diana too.
then everyone left i was left to walk ard jurong east with chewbecca
hahah really this world is a world of social deniaLL!!
ahaha. meows. hmm. walked till 3 then went home
i wanna go play tennis.
with JOSHUA. winks.

hmm. people cant stop assuming things.
i mean. i never specifically say who it is also.
haha so dont assume k. take care ppl.

[iloveyou.2days.]

2004-08-11T11:53:00.000+08:00

haha. kayy wani wants me to update
but ive got nothing to update
been staying at ritz to watch fireworks
and have been msg-ing chewbecca.
hahah. someone's got her hair cut
and it looks okayyy.
but the old one is nicer.
and now she looks like anime! cos her hair is now dyed black.
rrahs. and friendster is what kinda slow??!!
rrah. quick. anw.
i need to fart.

[can i blame it on you then?]

2004-08-04T11:27:00.000+08:00

yo. heh.
nothing happened yest
except fer pft
which was sooo... pffft.
hahah only got two pathetic a's
haha cos i was laughing my ass off during sit ups.
heh damn.
my pathetic a's were my shuttle run!!! yay!!!
10.4 secs. not bad. but coulda improved.
damn. then jump was 177.
is that an a? nehhh.
anw who cares.
hmm

today.
ehhh damn tired please
this whole week been sleepin late and waking early
and ive been goin to school early.
yawnns.
nth to update lerr.
but today is a free period day.
hee. ((: beams
but teacher goh didnt come.
sighh.

pickin up the pieces of me.

2004-08-02T19:57:00.000+08:00

you wanted to see it so badly right?
now you've seen it
there's no need for words
it's in my eyes and you can feel it
the amount of hatred in me
i blame you for everything
for all the blood ive lost.for.you.
all the tears shed.for.you.
all WASTED.
YOU TOOK AWAY MY INNOCENCE
YOU TOOK AWAY MY TRUST
give everything back to me
give everything back before i lose my sanity
you played games with my heart.
did you thoroughly enjoy it?
now you say you're sorry
but are you really sorry?
do you think by saying sorry you are actually helping me gain back what ive lost?
YOU MAY BE SORRY.
but there' s nothing you can do
for me to gain back whatever you've stolen for me.

im trying to trust once again
and im doing this for her

2004-07-31T16:35:00.000+08:00

yay!
im positively dilamun cinta dong.
thats all fer today.
i love you.
winks.

2004-07-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

iloveyou.
hahaha i really love youu

lets see. yesterday
couldnt remember atg!
brain concussion.
anw i remember annann's phone got confiscated at approx. 1130 pm
haha was msging her. that girl is hilarious.

today ehh.
had english!
me and triciagoh like okay already.
teacher goh rocks my socks.
haha seow.

hyper le today
hmm. i love this week a lot.
so happening ler.
winks.

[doubting the love i had for you.]

2004-07-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

hee. today was a fun day.
aksjflsdj ljsfd jm,nvb GIBBERISH please.
heeheeheehee. *giggles and closes mouth.
-points at diana.
hmm today after malay went to com lab!
and stumbled upon smth that totally rocked me.
like ROCKED me.
phew. me and ash were laughin our asses off
and i was so f.ing excited.
ohgoshgoshgosh.
hee. i love the world wide web
god bless the genius who created it.
-blesses. lala.
then had a lot of fun saying konek.
such a dirty word. tisk tisk.
bwawhahahahah *grins
-points to ash and ain
ohman. so dirty. anw.
my com hanged fer a moment when i was staring at smth
-points middle finger to com.
today is pointing day
points points points.
POINTS. hee. my fingers are itching to change the desktop pic
-itch itch.
hahaahahahha.
madness.
HAHA. anw i heard
I HEARD THAT A BLOODIFIED MORONIC SEC 1 SPIKED ME.
-wags middle finger.
die you bloody arsehole
burn in hell. lalala.
so god damn big mouth tell teacher goh i like her for wat.
so foorkin free ah
-glares.
anw to the 1c1 girl who told me about it
thankew. *beams.
heh. i don even know her
BUT she knows me!
faints. how the hell.
BUT I THINK ITS COS SHE LIKES WANI.
-exposes to the entire world.
heh *beams.
BUT ANYWAY... as i was saying
dumb sec ones.
any-oh-how say i like teacher goh
TSK.
teacher goh is soooo f.ing hottt.
i cant take it please.
but she's just an eyecandy lorh. FAINTS.
FUCK YOU SEC ONE PERSON WHO SPIKED ME.
dont know wat to say don say.
BASH YOU UPPP THEN YOU KNOW
hmph.
-points.
watching some match thing
ppl are running jumping roaring meowing
crap. hahahahha seow.
but i realise athletes are hot hot.
heh. kk i love youuuuuuu. my newest eyecandy.
POM! thats her name.hahah sounds sooo screwed
but hell.
she's hot.

[mad about you. POM.]

2004-07-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

heh. why is diana so hot.
hahah peter pettigrew.
anw yest had a lot of fun with xiling carolyn and diana
then went home with diana.
ehh. today is totally free period day
had pbl. totally crappified.
and today is an eyecandy day!
sooo fun. i love rainbows
out of point. kk its raining now
wanted to go nats.
but in the end never cos had other commitments.
ohwells.
i miss you
rainbows!
hahah i miss you.

[triciaknows.]

2004-07-27T14:17:00.000+08:00

i drive myself crazy thinking of you.

i love this song.
been listening to ash's mp3 in class lately.
burn from usher sounds nice too.
((; grins

hmm today no mass run. yepps
accidentally walked into two ppl scandalizing like mad.
oops. =X hahah kk then went off fer d and t.
hmm. damn sleepy le. wanted to pom down and sleep on the floor
POM. hahaha i like this word a lot.
kk then went fer recess. someone spilled milo down my skirt
lala. then msg-ed shafinaz. is that how she spells her name?
shruggs.
kk then had malay. then maths was sooooo disgusting
i falied my paper but got improve by 3 marks le.
productive.
then had science which was free period.
went to look fer shafinaz.
hmms. lala.
then now i am alone! in the com lab. so scarryyy.
eeks.

[takemelovemeholdmeusemescrewmemessmethrowme.away.]

2004-07-25T13:20:00.000+08:00

she cries.

didnt know this thing can change color
hmms.

yest slept at 330.
was thinkin about things
for 3 and a half hours straight
i am sooo tired.
midi was okay
we did our best
but other groups did better
so thats it then

to everyone who came down to support us
thanks. thanks for the things you guys bought us
((; whitley ppl rock.

sigh
was thinking of dunno what shit la
am soo depressed now. ohwells.
shall watch ghost story now
hmm. outta point.

[s o ne a r ye t s o f a r aw a y.]

triciaismine.

2004-07-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

today had english!
thats all i have to say
lala. heh. sooo happy!
ilovetriciagoh.
winks. yepps
tmr is midi finals.
all the best to xl nurul and siti

note to all midi players.
neh. i think only to xiling and nurul la.
hey you guys. all the best k
i think the midi thing has brought us closer
and xiling dont think we all are not close k
hmm. good luck and all the best
lets play this fer mr lee
and mr tok. fer all their sacrifices
fer eveything
fer all the tears shed.
all the best. have fun tmr k.
love you guys lots and lots.

[ilovetriciaandonlytricia.]

2004-07-21T11:42:00.000+08:00

so much fer my happy endin

heh today is racial harmony!
heh so many chio ppl around
ppl like tricia goh and carol.
heh kk then had maths which was sooo suckified
then had hmm. lit.
then pe.
no comments. damn pissed
thats all i know
ohwells. kk then had recess which was sooo totally funky-fied
cos got this sec one chio de
haha sooo fun. disturb her for a while
then nowwww issss cs.
yucks. today end school like latelate please
330 then end school please.
nvm shall not go fer maths remedial.
yepps.

[thanks for making me feel like i was the only one.]

2004-07-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
today was an ice skating day
which was sooo totally fun!
heh a lot of ppl fell
but im proud to day i didnt!! ((;
yayayayayay
heh. kk today first period was science
i was productive
for the first time in science
heh then had malay
ran up and down from the malay class to my class
for about four times
cos i left a book in class
had no key. then found key. then didnt bring key for lock.
i can totally die!
ohwells. then had eh english!!!!
i love tricia goh. do i have to say more?
she's soooo bung-ified today
i love herrr.
and i know where she lives.

let me show you geylang chicken
whats that you say?
lai lai lai lai lai lai lai lai lai lai.

heh. then had recess
totally funny cos the whole lot of us cos wanted so save muhneh
yepps. then met xl. and caroline.
carolines sooo funny k.
the honeydew can become gun. mwaha. so cute
xl and me were so god damned amused by her
then played in the rain had cme
was totally crappified
ohwells. then english again.
sighhhhh. i love. i love. i love tricia.
so much.
then had assembly.
totally funkyfied.
had rehearsal
saw lilian. heh sorry neh reply
my phone totally no money.
you owe me letter.
yepps. heh then went off for skating
sooo fun.
heh then went home.
lala. laaaaa. looloo
i miss prettygirl
heh. prettygirl. blushblush.
ohwells. finished doing history
if im gonna do history next year ive gotta prepare to die.
sighh. cant take geog le. too weak
heh. yepps
wanna sleep
yawwnnss.

[tinky-winky.]

2004-07-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

oh look what you've done you've made a fool of everyone
hmm. havent updated for quite a while
dunno when i stopped
was it a wednesday??mwaha.
short term memory sucks
anw got nth to update
wahaha. listening to the reason
cries. its sooo depressin.
nehhhh.
mr ho just called me.
heh to remind me bring journal.
owe him for like ten thousand years de.
kk update

yesterday.
went to yishun! yay.
played com games with my totally idiotic cousin
heh then had a lot of fun with my aunts new flip fone.
then went out to eat at chong pang pizzah hut.
two lasagne one personal pizza 10 chicken drumlets and 10 breadstixs
for two person. like wow. halfway ate lasagne i was already 3/4 full.
ate the breadstick. supposedly an appetizer. then stuffed myself with everything
faints. then the breadstick got sauce de
and guess what since my cousin used to work there she knew it was reused.
and recycled.
means someone already dipped in it.
gross. =X so we decided to put in ice
and pepsi and the crushed red pepper in
heh mixed it until it looked brand new
but then the waitress threw it away. such a waste.
soooo wasted! sigh. hahaha then went home late.

monday. today!
school was fun!
cos had dance lesson
and english! yay!
today she look sooooo hot with her chio hair
and one strand was stickin out but she still looks hot
sneezes. blah. i think im gonna be sick.
whole day trying to sneeze. ended up yawning somehow
kk then had pe which was fun cos we played against this sec4 clique
and they were like darn good
meow. i was gonna puke cos didnt eat breakfast
then there was this nice person. she was sooo concerned
hahah damn cute. then had recess. malay.
then had english again! yay.
the class totally embarrased me in front of her k
totally crap la you all.
shes just my eyecandy laaa. meows.
heh kk then had maths
did my band timetable
sigh. then went to look for sp. or who ahh. yeah sp.
yepps. today is hyper day.
then went for sci rem. neo was there
wanted to die. neo- fucknation.
ohwells. then had ehh. band.it was mostly fun la cos the three of us couldnt stop gossiping
and rolling our eyes at that totally kookoofied polong.
hmms.

this is for xiling.
ehhh you dont so stressed k.
dont like that la.
mr lee is yer motivator remember
so must not give up k.
the midi is for mr lee.
for all his sacrifices
for everything.
so chins up. ((;
dont let anyone get you down.
and dont cry. please dont
you may think that i this kind damn carefree kind
but im not. i too have a lot on my mind
but try not to be sooo stressed k
am damn worried for you.
so cheer up! ((; smiles.
i tell you ah. anyone who makes xl cry again arhhh
will get it from me and nurul. and wani and zhiying
and many more. hmph. kookoofied polongs.
band is gettin soooo stressful. i wanna die
but for bangkok and the world tour's sake
i shall change
i wanna be responsible! i wanna perform
meows. after band found out smth disturbing
gigolo is outta my dictionary!
gross. eeeekkss. the word is enough to send chills down my spine
heh. english sooo cheem arh
i wanna top class fer english again.
this one's fer tricia.

[if im the one you chose then let me be the one forever.]

2004-07-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

meows. watsup with blooger huh
damn. i need tah fart
kk i love leticia and qixin and usarin and nic and ethel and the other one. grace
yepps. heh cos they are funny people.
today didnt go down to cck cos had rehearsal
blah. today is boring. really
except for english. d-UH. english is soo fun
meows. tried breathing in her perfume
and oggy and sm and me were tryin to look for her bra line
but coulndt find any
kk then blah la. after the whole rehearsal
wani and ash went town
didnt feel like walking around
so stayed with xl cos i wanted to do my homework
went up to 3s3
apparently 3s3 were filled with sooo many ppl trying to learn tamil
hahaha. funny ppl.they are all so funky k. ended up laughing my ass off
and learnin new tamil words
were screamin like mad ppl in the classand kartinie was just opposite
wth. ohwells
thankew hj for lending us money to get home
winks. shall pay you on monday
hmm. peiyin is sooo squeamish! wheeee.((;
heh today was basically hyper-ified
ohwells. hee.
i love aishah's brother.

[shall make him mine.]

2004-07-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

feeling down.

im supposed to treat you as my friend
im supposed to like you as a friend, nothing more
but im falling for you once again
and i don want to
don wanna fall for you again
do i?

sigh. depressive state.

cant do compo
my brain hurts real badly
listening to first love
just wanna sit and cry the whole day
sigh. this song is soooo depressive.
don feel like blogging

all i want now is for you to be with me.
all i want is for you to be in my arms once again

ive just gotta dream on.

i miss you so much.

[signed sealed delivered im yours.]

I can still feel the taste of tobacco
On my lips when you last kissed me
And I thought "Will we see each other again?"
Where will you be tomorrow this time?
Will I be still on your mind?
Oh tell me is your love gonna be the same

You are always gonna be my love
I hope it's true, I have never felt this way about anyone
I'll remember to love, you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one, in my life
Someday we will see each other again
I know that you are my one and only first love

Time can not stop feelings such as this
Everyday from now I'll think about you
When you came into my life, my world began turning
Where will you be tomorrow this time
Will it be me on your mind?
Please tell me that your love is gonna be the same

You will always be inside my heart
I know it's true. I hope that you never change the way you are
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one in my life
Someday we will see each other again
I know that you are my one and only first love

You are always gonna be my love
I know it's true. I have never felt this way about anyone
I'll remember to love, you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
One day we will be together again
Now and forever, we will

first love.in english
sigh. depressing!
dammit.

[you screwed me up ive done no wrong.]

2004-07-14T18:55:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo! wassup?!
mwaha. okay lets recap.
heh today is such a high day.
winks.

ohwells.
here goes years and years of entries.

saturday evening.
went out after changing back to shoes
cos i know we'll be running around.
heh okay then met ash & nurul at esplanade
ate strawberry dipped chocolate or the other way round
i darno. heh. reminds me of strawberryjam.
mwaha. then dropped the choc on the floor. ohwells.
then went into the concert hall.
our seat was like sooo infront
we could practically kiss the players on stage
heh. then sat beside self-proclaimed fact- stating chiobu pam.
pukes. heh and wanqi too. and wani.
hahaha. concert started. then there was this oh so cute violin player
totally caught my eye k. sooo hot
sooo cute! the way he plays.
faints. hahahh i enjoyed it thoroughly
shaun is damn good with the violin
and aishah's bro is sooo small and cute
and his friend too!
totally took pictures
hot. too hot.
_ _c a n t t a k e i t._ _*
FAINTS.
kk. then hahhahaha felt damn high k.
totally cant help myself.
oh yepps! mr sem was the emcee!!
and we totally cheered for him
heh i love mr sem.
hah. kk then after the concert we went toilet
the whole lot of us
then adilah was missing, then aishah
hahah funny k.
then we went out. sang the moon represents my heart
and everyone was staring at my stupidness
mwahah. then ate candy floss!!!!!
yay!! so nice k. so yummy.
oh yepps. shall call my violin hot guy candy floss.
whee! heh we were damn loud and everything
wanqi wani [the mother and dotter] and peiting [the father]
pam, me, aishah, adilah, farina, xiling, theresa etc.
and sang are you sleeping brother john!!!
hahah i tell you we were damn loud
snag happy march at the bridge near fullerton
and everyone was staring cos we were damn loud
heh. then peiting wanted to eat cheese fries at 1015???
ohmygosh like totally no kfc around le.
hah. then took the train home. and everything
lalala.

sunday!!
fun day. i love.
morning met wani at je.
she went out of the train when i went in
so i had to wait for 65402132156 years for her to reach clementi
went to meat wanqi and xiling and nurul at cine bk to eat
BREAKFAST! ate and took lotsa pics.
like mixing the ice with tea dregs.
whatever you call em. hahah it was disgusting
check out xilings phone
took a pic of it. took lotsa pics too!!
check xilings phone again. yepps.
heh then went to heeren to find hairband but like duh shops still close
so we walked around hmv to listen to first love again!!
heh then saw cute twins. then went off
took lotsa blue balloons totally kiddy please
but totally fun
heh walked to orchard mrt
to go aries to find hairband
then went to buy flowers!! heh bought one for xiling and she totally didnt expect it
but nvm. then went off to school.
wanqi's ballon burst, wani's got lost in a tree along town.
heh. then in school stood in the middle of a parade square
to release our ballons and make a wish.
yepps. got scolded by ms low. but oh wells. nvm
heh had a lot of fun during band. damn fun i tell you
everyone was so hyper.
then after that went to change and then went off to botanic gardens!!!!!!!
heh oh yeah before that went toilet cos i had to pee
then my skirt dropped heh.
had to braid hair. yuck.
heh anw reach botanics played blahblah
too tired to type
had lotsa fun la.
cos banana muff. came and i was sooooo happy cant take it faints.
heh then went dinner with mommy and daddy.
ohwells. tiring. but fun. ((;

monday.
NEO SUCKS THE SHIT OUTTA ME.
fuck.
thats all i have tah say.
kookoo nehneh of a blardie bird of a chicken
hmph
had sci rem by goh.
better than neo la. can already.
then had band. stayed in the store room with xl.
then hahah went out to find mr lee
saw tricia goh lotsa times that makes me want to just drop dead on th floor
had english! three fuckin periods k. so happy!!can totally die staring at her
swoons.
heh had music too. learnt to dance.
para2. and bali dance. smth liddat.
truly fun i tell you. really. i mean it man
i didnt know dancing rocks. and ms chua is so small and petite
and cute and funny. haha
went home after band. yepps.

yesterday.
toosday.
boring
fuck neo and her television specs
which are so humongous they are the size of her humongously humungous boobs
damn. i hate her.
yepps. today is boring
but had english which was so fucking fun!!!
i love tricia!!!
damn bertha la
made me so high.
heh.
yepps. delia is my tata young partner.
mwaha.

tooday.
wednesday
neo fucknation day
anti-neo day
and anti- ------- day.
mwaha.
today is stoppid. letsee
maths was productive cos i did all sums correctly.
lit was droning.
then had pe which i totally ponned
played netball with hannah
then got acsi boys that sp are crazy over
ohwells. said hi to tricia gohh!!!!
oh faints. she said hi back k. how sweet!
and she smiled some more
hmph. Atricia cum atikah.
please take note.
mwahahahahha. evilaughs.
then had recess offered everyone sweets
grace 'grace' and lilian totally took ten thousands of em
meowrs.
yepps. lilian dared pam to ask that kookoo acsi guy what instru he play
i ended up asking
mwaha. so lilian.
and grace the real one
owe me two bucks and three roses respectively.
yepps. he plays the perc and i asked if anyone plays t.bone
then everyone stared to screw their noses up like it was damn cute or smth
yuck. gross. kk then went up class
pam was totally in love with one acsi guy
rollseyes
then had cs. played mean girls on the pc
cos shervon wasnt in and sherman said we could do anything we wanted
heh mean girls rock. so bitchy.
mwaha. kk then had history which was sooo screwed. BANG.
had to stand behind cos i didnt complete my work.
half the class was there/. like yucks
then she asked us this dumb survey
how good is yer history tcr or smth liddat
then we all had smth bad to say le
in the end it was about s.e.q's
like dammit. she said: 'do i care about what you think about me? no!'
then we were like: 'rollseyes.'
yucks. please laaa. disgusting kookoo nehneh. nehhhhh.
sticksouttoungue
yepps then had lunch
may was like eh you wanna act crook int front of the acsi guys?
mwaha. it was quite funny la
totally cannot make it.
ohwells. heh then went up had mt. then went for remedial
i was again productive
yepps went down to find esh
met ppl. realised 3s3 is totally into indian culture
cos everyone was speaking in tamil.
mwaha. and daph has this dot on her forehead
totally madness.
ohwells. ate cheese toast tuna bread egg bread and banana and milo
totally nutricious. atewithlonglosthydro.
ohwells. nehh. then went up to class. watched more tricia on tape
played it for like a record of 187628736454 times.
ohfaints.
heh dad fetched.
i am still watching the tape.
sighs.

new word.
oh this one can make me horrrnayyye.
and the word is.
MEOW.

[im still waiting.]

this entry is sooo fuckin long.
meow.

2004-07-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

hello! heh today was a happy day
and it still is.
damn josef!! must he really yawnnnn in my face????
cries. i want tricia gohhhh.
stoopidjosef.
anyway. oral i think was okay
with the exception of him yawnin in my face. cursescurses.
heh then had band which was totally fun and funky.
cos we got to change to tmr's uniform!!!
yayyyyyyyyy!!
soooo chioooo k. faints.
big shirt and short black skirt so totally hot.
heh played ketchup till i wanna die
halfway constipated
saw haowen. its that how you spell her name?
hahah she's damn hilarious la that girl. faints.
mwaha. then after that went to polish instru for adilah
i am such a nice person. winks.
heh then after that went to meet prettygirl and lisa to eat lunch
wani came along. heh had a hell lot of fun.
cos it was soooo crappified. i was being disgusting and everything
played with the food in my mouth
irritated lisa a lot. heh couldnt stop meow-ing.
mwaha. MEOW. it was sooo fun kayyy.
prettygirl was sooo kookoo. heh.
but pretty. still. anw thanks to lisa for helping us pay through nets
even though she was damn pissed hahaha. neh. faintsss.
heh. it was damn funny la.
mwaha. i was being stupid
then went to find stationary. yay!
bought lotsa grReen things. hee. winks.
then went home. was so sad to leave prettypokk.
but heh. now i am at home dying.
dad is sending me to ahhh! ohmygosh. the makin of spidey is on!!
heh spidey. so funny.
anyway am going to the esplanadeeee.
heh wore my sleeveless top and my jeans
with high heels!! so sexy and hot.faints.
self-praise.
heh. dad wants me off the com.

[take my hand and i'll be okay.]

2004-07-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

blood sisters.

i miss all my blood sisters.

my blood is your blood.

i miss bloodsistas.
my three sistas. suddenly miss em so much
sigh. today was a depressed - cum - hyper day!!
and today too was an eyecandy day
hah too many things happen la.
i miss the old days. thats all.
lost my bloody band file.
sigh. feel like crying!!
moodswingmoodswing 24/7
sigh.
delia pointed out that strawberry jam has a crooked nose.
ohwells.
sigh. i love tricia goh.
she is so hot and sexy.
heh. yepps.
had self prac. damn.
a complete waste of time cos i didnt practice
sigh. was depressed.
heh. sighhhs.
didnt know hj could conduct.
that girl is hilarious.
she thinks she's sane. faints.
what kind. anyway.
i am sad sad.
i wanna crycry.
but i dunno why. sigh
i guess im just missing you.

dont walk away from me.

2004-07-07T11:27:00.000+08:00

hello. lets recap. heh
yesterday went to goldhill to practice
it was damn fun cos ms low came along
she sent us there
then it was basically like that la.
then went topshop to buy my sleeveless and 3/4 pants
so chioo. 85 bucks burn in one day.
ohwells. then went home. was late for piano cos i was busy watching tv
did english homework with the aircon at 18 degrees.
froze to death
ohwells.

today. daddy sent me to school cos i was carrying a huge ikea bag
today is the antigone play.
heh was the first one to reach school.so dark i was so freaked out
slotted my work in tricia goh's window.
ohwells. the day started off well. went to 2c2 for assembly cos i was bored.
today flingfling is very pretty in black. heh i love man.
anyway then had maths which was so darn booooring i almost died-ed of boredom.
then had lit!! antigone playyyyyyayayayayay.
changed to normal bra. and tube. my boobs were definately bigger.
heh so proud of em. wore my sleeveless
looked totally crappy. the play was crappy too cos oggy forgot her dumb lines.
ohwells. i did too. heh so i am equally dumb.
anywayyyayayayyayayayay every group was good heh
we did our best laa. yepps . didnt have pe cos i dont think mrs heng came?
yepps. had early recess and everything
saw prettygirl. heh so happy.
then saw strawberry jam. so cute larrhh. heh
drank chocolate milk!!. heh i love chocolate milk.
went to buy banana and fruits. cos today is a fruit day!!! so enthu kay.
heh was so hyper today. maybe cos i saw prettygirl.
then heh ashikin and me are banana buddies!!!
we intend to draw faces on them
wani is dirty minded. ahahahhahhah
wheeee!! heh then collected music book.
went to see if got any worksheets. got one stack but no money to payyyayayay.
heh then now is damn cs. and i cant be bothered to listen cos this doesnt concern me.
ohwells.
iwannaeatmybananaanddrinkmychocolatemilk.

[quit playing games with my heart.]

2004-07-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

i wanna change to be a better person.
but nothings gonna change my love for you.

you love her for who she is not for what she is.
-ripped from pro bung andi. dunno what that means. she's being philosophical again
now she's in l.a i miss her. sigh. talked to her last night.
words of wisdom again. heh.

love her with all your heart
you have to risk the fact that she might not love you back.
thats what you gotta know if you truly love her.
-this is ripped form wani. she told me the other day. sigh. that one helped a lot.

love her in silence even if it hurts so bad.
-this is ripped form myself. heh i am being dumb.

oh wells. enough of love talk.
SPIDEY wants to eat BUTTERFLY up.
heh then DOG can eat CAT back.
mwaha. private joke
between prettygirl and me.

2004-07-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

this is again not for me.

damnit. i am very angry and worried!!
still. sigh. wat to do.
there's nothing i can dooooooo
lalala
anyway this yr v.impt. i must learn to concentrate only on studies
yesh! only studies. nothing more.
oh yeah and band too.
studies and band only. and my best friends.
but nothing of any anything that will affect me greatly.
cos i wanna be the top student. for once.
and make myself and mommy and daddy and bro happy. and hydro too.
yepps. i must dont care about thunder and lightning affair
or anything of that sort.
yepps. this is my resolution page.
i wanna be a nerd nerd and i don wanna break anymore rules.
heh that one i will try. yepps.
i wanna be good. and guai.
yeahs. my room is finally cleared and packed and everything is in order again.
my writing desk is not messy anymore.
heh good space to study.
yepps. off to study.
i wanna be a triple science-er.

[cos we are special, special, everyone is special. everyone in his or her own ways.]

2004-07-04T13:46:00.000+08:00

my body's longing to hold you. so bad it hurts inside.

my dumb room is in a bloody mess
painted it pink again
and i think the wall's about to collapse
damn.

anyway lets recap.
i dont remember doing anything on thursday
but xl changed specsies.
and i commented a lot on them cos i think they are nice
heh then after band made a lot a lot of noise in the bus and mrt
damn funny.

friday had youth day
which was totally eyecandy day
and my winkwink was so hot.
so was flingfling.
heh me and ash got like
winkwink
flingfling
ling2*
and wani's got blueblue.
which is totally outta point!! heh.
my new one is called that play thing.
shall inform wani about this on tues.
anyway couldnt find atg to wear so i wore pe shirt
daddy sent me to school cos it was raining heavily
yepps i cant remember what i did but there were lessons.
boring lessons that totally bore me to death
mrs lim gave us candy. she's damn biased.
cos she refused to give extra candy to me
neh. she doesnt believe i am hardworking.
haha who cares.
then lit came sharon goh gave us chocolate.
then malay. stupid la.
i was flicking my orange pen then it flicked to my nose
so my nose was orange faints!!
haahh hahahah then kartinie gave me and wani 4 mins to go toilet
came back late she asked us to do pumping.
i got back ache wat so she excused me
told me to sweep. heh sweeped 1/12 of the room
hahaha wani did 35 situps.
then went to concert. accompanied may to toilet.
then concert sat beside pearlyn. heh totally bitchy and bimbotic.
it was okay le. not so fun.
except for the trainee tcrs part
cos flingfling was there
faints. so hot k.
ms pham was so funny.
prettygirl's beach babe was funky hahahha
our co-form was so bimbotic and vain. hah
then collected pizza
concert ended had a pot luck thing in canteen.
6 pizzas. i ate five slices i think
so hungry k. then gave one to flingfling.
winks. oh saw winkwink. i wanna wink at her.
but totally cannot cos its so obvious. and that play thing too
heh so funny. then went off to esplanade
went to citylink to happy house first
then went to the adidas shop and saw this funky sleeveless shirt
which i totally wanna buy but mommy wont let me
cos i spent 22 bucks on my keychain and harrypotter poster.
sigh. anyway i had lotsa fun.
wani was depressed so i had no choice but to be depressed with her
my imagination was running wildwild k.
faints. dunno what i was thinking.

saturday. came for band at 9 which is so fun cos we didnt have marchin
played lotsa songs and had lotsa fun
cos my neck was so stiff xl was helping me massage it
heh thanks. the whole day it was stiff le
then went for lunch at tanglin mall
the whole band ate there
was thinking of smth really horrible.
thunder will get her way nurul
and lightning will love her back.
sigh. then anw ate macs then went to the chocolate shop to get nougats
which are so nice and tasty. then went to the superrmarrket to get chips
then cabbed down tah school went off to kallang!!!
a lot of things happen at kallang and we had lotsa fun
sat with wanqi cherlynn wani and nurul.
then laugh and laugh and cheer and cheer like damn hell
i love acs barker boys. they are so cute.
esp that bracey guy. hahahah i love!! he's so hot.
wanted to take his picture but the shy wat faints.
cherlynn tried to take a picture of herself
with that cute guy in the backgrd but totally hopeless
hahah my cousin was dancing in the mass dance display
and some crescent ncc were marching and stuff
then the deyi sec dm was soooo good!!!
rocks man. bowen was good but dm not that good cos he dropped that long stick thingy
tk was the best. i mean they had good sound and everything
they won!!! hah happy for them
anyway if you're going kallang
dont go to the toilet cos its so dirty
saw lotsa disgusting things.
yucks. heh anyway went to the guys toilet without knowing it
haha no wonder it looked different. lucky no one was inside man.
faints. haha then it was raining le. more like drizzling.
ahaha took out my auntie umblella. cherlynn had hello kitty
and this acs(i) boy had doraemon.
FAINTS! hahah anw the whole thing ended and everything
i was feeling depressd and everything. blah. reached school
then cabbed down to meet my mommy at raffles hospital with my aunt and cousins.
heh was feeling hungry so ate lotsa chicken rice. then went home.
damn tired and everything.
today is a damn boring day. the wind is blowing directly in my face
and i am very cold haha.
looks like its gonna rain.
sigh. its gonna happen.
i know it is.
but i don wanna lose you
the both of you
in case it happens. cos i know that ill never forgive her.
no matter how close i am to her. i know ill never be able to forgive her
sigh. i am sorry. i am so sad. sigh.

dont wanna lose you both.
cos i love the both of you too much.
i cant bear to lose any of you.

ohfuckme. why am i so sad?
hahah i must be happy.
winks.

people say that it takes more than a quarrel to break a true friendship.
but what have we done that totally broke us apart?

2004-07-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

the future holds too many surprises for us
__* i l o v e you. i s t i l l do.*__

wheee!! bro downloaded shareaza.
can totally download the whole of mtv
heh so happy.
anywaydid i update yesterday?
wanted to wake up at 215
cos wanted to watch soccer match
set alarm at 215 i didnt wake up
218 my dad got nightmare
so i woke up
then the hall so dark i very scared
heh cos i thought ju-on will come
then all the ghost will attack me.
cries. im such a scaredy-cat.
heh in the end i got so freaked out i went back to sleep
before that prettygirl msg me
and she was so high until i got influenced
she's sooooo funny. heh she thinks i am funny.
eh? heh pretty girl is understanding.
yup. anw lets recap today
another eyecandy day
heh my mother is funny
she is laughing at the ppl on tv.
heh then she choke on salive
hahaha
anw today saw tricia goh. faints. why is she so hot?????????
faints. heh today got d&t and laugh until like mad
then was recess and everything
after malay found out smth disturbing but funny
then went for sci and saw prettygirl
was actually waving at nurul but then never mind
was half waving at prettygirl too
heh then peeped from upstairs
cos tricia goh was downstairs.
science was fun cos we got to explore mirrors.
so funny le. cant stop laughing.
heh then met peiting.
damn funny la that girl so hilarious.
heh then went back science lesson end and everything.
stayed back to do antigone which is due nx week????
totally not rushing. heh then had lotsa fun.
went down for band. collected wrksheets
actually wanted to walk past tricia goh's office
heh then went to meet xl.
she change specs! faints. comment so much about it.
heh. then blah. had lotsa funfunfun!!!!!
totally laugh like mad.
yup then got 15 mins break. ate chicken pattie set?
eeeyucks. morgan is my daughter today.
heh she happily mashed my already mashed potatoes.
heh then band end blahblah.
hahahah today is totally laughing day la.
heh giggles madly.
then reach home msged prettygirl
talked about lotsa things like hair??
heh and everything else.
yup then my mom confiscate my phone!
cries. ohwell. wrote letter for prettygirl.
heh faints.
heh kk. gtg le. so tired.
tmr youth day

[clearly its not for me.]

dont keep your distance.

2004-06-30T20:20:00.000+08:00

there's nothing i can do. im so in love with you.

haha i think my parents are funny
they are arguing whether to put aircon in the hall or not
anyway today was the best
after cs went to history
and i feel so guilty k.
cos i almost fall asleep
my brain was totally off
blah. but right the moment the bell rang i was totally awake k
wahpiangg. then went malay
was supposed to be lunch le
so went off to 2s2 to find lala and my niece
and my future daughter morgan
she's a bad bad daughter hahah cos she always bully me
neh. haha then after malay went to walk around the school
saw winkwink when talking to nurul
she's darn hot. i cant take it. faints.
hahah nurul is dumb.
she is totally hopeless to hiding things
faints hahaha.
how dare she pull my skirt up when i never wear shorts.
i dunno who saw le but i swore so loudly i think the whole canteen heard.
heh and i was wearing my catcat undies.
totally obit. red and white. a bit like indon flag haha but very chio k.
hahaha oh faints.
then went back to class made lotsa jokes
just couldnt stop laughing
till stomach pain k. i laugh until want to die liddat.
hahahahaha. oh yup before that saw tricia goh.
i wanna die of happiness. she wear pink today.
so hot. hahah then left canteen
xl say sherman was in the canteen after i left le
so not fated can. sigh
hahaha but anyway went home after that.
hah. i need to do homework.
still got a lot more to go le.
later going to sleep then watch match at 235.
ohmygod. the search cat on my com is licking its feet.
and now its gone. no its back
hahah this thing is cute.
and hee the cat is chasing a green butterfly de
so cute!.

[listen to my heart beat for you.]

2004-06-30T12:08:00.000+08:00

i long for your touch
long to hear your voice again
but it seems time has pulled us apart
the gap between us is just too big
we're just too far apart
there's nothing we can do

we're just not meant to be.

hahahah fuckme.
why am i in such a disgusting mood.
heh.

[my heart is in your hands.]

2004-06-30T12:04:00.000+08:00

eh i am back after 1 whole free period.
sweating like mad cos i walked around the school with peiting
not gonna do the workout. ohwell.

[not a word spoken.]

2004-06-30T11:18:00.000+08:00

this com is damn slow.
anyway today is a winkwink eyecandy day.
heh saw tricia goh. and prettygirl. and winkwink too!
ahahahhahah but hor. today is generally boring
gave mrs susan tan a bouquet of flowers.
then audrey neo came. our new co-form.
i think our class damn suay. oh wells
didnt get tricia goh though. heard that she is 3s3's co- form.
blah. i want tricia goh. haha
then got maths. lit. then pe.
didnt run cos back pain. mrs heng made us walk around the netball court
till the lesson was over.
wani yvonne and me walk together
that was when i saw tricia goh, prettygirl and winkwink all at the same time.
haha happy day.
recess had a good time bitching about that somebody
who apparently thinks that she's the best
that she has the power to boss people around
apparently to her she thinks that the whole world revovles around her
and she thinks that she's so pretty and almighty
ohfuckher. i cant be bothered. damn bitch.
you think you so great huh.
then ate noodle.
first time i finish the whole plate
i very proud of myself this days kay
been achieving a lot of things.
i am happy. ((;
oops class start le.

[make me yours for life.]

2004-06-29T21:26:00.000+08:00

omygosh. i cant believe i spelled my future fling fling's name wrongly.
ohfuckme. heh. quoted from gossipgirl.
anyway. ive given her u p u p and a w a y.
heh. cant be bothered. i mean.
yeah. ohwells. fuckme. smacks face.

anyway today it was raining like mad.
then reach class it was locked so me and gaybung [wani.] and kris
walked past MRS. susan tan's room and saw flingfling.
heh no laa saw ms goh.
it was still raining le then it was damn dark and cold
then had to walk by the ballerina
heh i know it sounds dumb but im damn freaked out by it k.
then i screamed and ran away
heh. oops.
then went up to class to bully viv.
our class out there got balcony wat
then rain so heavily until it flooded
so we tried to push viv in cos shes so easy and nice to bully.
and naturally she fell in.
oh wells expected. heh.
then science was funny la. i totally paid attention.
really k. i want to be a triple science-er.
heh. didnt fall asleep or died-ed of boredom
then went for malay. had fun? yeah. did my freakin homework.
then had to rush to change for investiture.
cheyyy. like i councillor liddat.
changed to band uni.
then walked ard. cos i was hungreh.
then went for rehearsal blah blah blah.
then teachers came in. hee. saw old flingfling. winkwink
haha ohman.
then played fanfare a bit too early though
but i think it was better than rehearsal's.
so. then got lotsa speech. wahlaoooooehhhhhh.
damn long winded siahhhh. want to die man.
heh me and xl had damn lotsa fun can.
hee. professional conduct. ohwells
i am proud of myself cos i tuck in my shirt.
shermin got praise me kays.
i this kind damn hard ppl praise one k.
thankew shermin. heh. i show good example!!
winkwink. then went to PAT. went to eat heh
the food was okays. then minglemingle everywhere
ohwells. ash cheer up kays. smiles
that person's a damn bitch la
forget about her k. remember what i said.
l o v e you l o t s.

eh watching this damn super drama
the stupid bitch's indon accent is so fake-ified.
eeh. cecilia can speak better indon.
and her hair. oh man its so obvious its a damn wig.
eeh. yucksss.

[my flame is burning for you once again and i just cant help myself.]

whoops. hee. but i want you back.
watch me baby. im gonna make you my flingfling soon!!
heh winks.

2004-06-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

heh i feel like such a damn cheaterbug
supposed to do compo
but hello ppl here totally gone case
heh totally cant think. eeps
heh this house is super damn messy lorh
stupid renovator do so slow.
and all my presents are squashed up between books.
like my green plate. and the wand thingy p'lynn gave me for v.day
and my pretty pink pig. ooh. my mom didnt throw it away after all
if not i will die of depression. faints. heh but i lost your card.
whoops. =X heh. sorryyyy.
what about my glow-in-the-dark stars in the testtube thing
and the pretty korean keychain mel gave me for p6 farewell
and lotsa other things.
i am damn sad. so sad.
cos i dunno where i put my cousins library book
sigh. my brain damage lerrr.
but anw today lesson time was damn fun
cos we got trica goh. and she's damn funky.
hee. me and wani fell in love with her lerrr.
what to do. too hot ler.
hee. ahems. heh today is bimbo day
cos i cant stop giggling
too happy. heh. too high more like it.
today reach class it was happpily locked.
neh. so we had fun outside class
vivian finally had her ear pierced
heh. no diff. sorry viv.
then was interaction. got mr ho? yeahhs.
then it was music!
ahems
CREATIVE ARTS REP kayyy.
hee wink wink. watched show
the guy is damn gay.
but his ballet damn good
i am impressed
then english
no need to say.
that was the time when i got real high
cos trica goh teach wat.
hee. giggles.
then today pe didnt run cos i had back ache and neck pain
then height and weight. i grew one pathetic cm
but nonetheless, (hee. so cheem) i still grew. and now i am 48.2kg
hee. fatter a bit.
then recess. eh i hungry eh. ate a lot a lot.
saw my pretty niece. she like very shy liddat.
hee. omygosh when will i ever stop giggling??
faints.
kk. then had mt, then ENGLISH again.
TWO periods eh. heh i can faint from staring at her kayys.
i love her ((: and heh i got put star beside english period in my timetable.
hee. giggles madlyyy. oooh faints.
hee. then maths was interesting
i learnt something newww. about indeces.
hee. and i do all sums correct one lorh
never look at answers somemore
hee. potential triple science-er.
hee. no la. fake onlyyy. giggles.
what kind of triple science-er giggle like mad huh. hee.
then got band
i talked to morrrrrgan. and ceciiiiiilia.
winkwink. i love em all.
wahahaha. mwaha. mwaha. hee. giggles.
heh then had band rehearsal
i am tired of blasting
pls take note if our trombones crack
buy us new ones kay. ((;
yup. then many things happen. so pissed off kay
totally ripped my giggly mood off.
then i wasnt so high anymore.
like pfft. then after band
we jiayou nurul run
me and xl were doing parlouf? heh so fun.
ran about 4 rounds. hee. then i got high again.
cos tbone section rocks rocks.
we may be unproductive
to you we might be a totally slack section
we are unproductive, lazy and incorrigible and forgetful.
cos we always misplace things
but we are united kay.
and we'll show the world tbone is not that useless
not tip top standard but good standard.
hmphffff.
anyway mr chua rocks.
totally lifted my mood u p u p and a w a y !!
hee. he's so cute. giggles.
heh. kk then went home.
lets talk about sunday

had concert at henderson cc.
wheeee!!! not that good but i had fun
i had fun cos me and xl threw saliva on the stage
whee. heh. then it was more fun-er
cos prettygirl came.
and she was very pretty in pink shirt and short skirt
she was heavenly cute and hot.
heh. couldnt take my eyes off her.
then went off to sakura to eat
then my stupid stomach pain ler.
had to call my dad to pick me up
whoa like pain lorh
can die one
hmms.
then evening horh.
still can go to east coast
stomach pain finish ler.
so went cycling
hee. then saw lotsa jet planes and ships.
heh then went home.

heh this is for you
uhm i hope you like what i gave you today
hahah uhm yepps. say hi to 'grace' for me.
say its from 'wani'.
heh 'grace' will understand.
tell joanne this k.
heh.

*things will never be the same again.

so much for my happy ending

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

so much for my happy ending

2004-06-26T14:02:00.000+08:00

oh yups. promoting our performance.
anyone interested to watch me
doing an alto sax solo
hahaha can go and watch us play on 24july at shangrila
eh nooo la not shangrila. where got so high class one
at shangrila the beside there. 7 pm
anyone interested pls contact tan xiling at 3s3 on monday
pls bring along five bucks.
winks.

there xiling.
i promote ler.

2004-06-26T13:56:00.000+08:00

today is a constipated day.
ohwells lets not talk about band cos half the time i was shitting.
hah. anw today shall go to yishun
visit my dear granny and pops.
and my cousins!!!
so we can play ppg again.
haha

oh.
i love sherman.
and the person whom i fed banana muffin.
hee.

2004-06-24T11:17:00.000+08:00

template changed thanks to
SHUPING.
heh.

2004-06-23T12:01:00.000+08:00

oh anw hahah
oh man
had fun with my cousins fingernail play thingy
mwaha. i have funky nails.
anw played with play-doh.
and barbie!!
and oh we played ppg again. mwaha.
faints.

2004-06-23T11:25:00.000+08:00

sigh. so many things happening le.
glad thigs are okay now
but i can tell that things wont be the same anymore.
oh wells.
but hey. dont say that you dont matter to me k.

hmm. the house is undergoing renovation.
so i guess ill be stayin over at my grans house.
ohwells.
i need to do the stupid english assignment
20 articles.
can die.

i need to sleep.

*im sorry for all the times ive hurt you.

2004-06-22T19:03:00.000+08:00

oh god.
im so sorry.
im so so sorry.

after a session who doctor ahems
feel like things are not meant to be this way
sigh. i am sorry k
shouldnt have said those things.
i know you hate me.
but its okay.
guess you have every reason to be angry.

sigh.

things are not getting better.

i just wanna die.

mwaha.

*im not human. i cant make mistakes.

2004-06-22T18:17:00.000+08:00

oh puh-lease.
can you please just shut it?
had enough of this
oh wow like who hurt who last time huh
who was the one who made me so screwed
think about it la please
you're so irritating.
and guess what.
i dont give a shit if im a bloody bitch
i dont give a fuckin shit about who you think i am
and hell. if you think im one hell of a god damned bitch
then be it.
I DONT CARE ANYMORE.
noooo. not anymore. I DONT CARE AT ALL.
what??? say that again?
oh you know me too well?
then im sorry to say you dont know me at all.
and for me commenting?
what do you care.
okay now i geddit.
you're single. again.
oh wow thats news to me.
okay fine i get the damn message
so can you please drop the whole subject
hate me for all i care
you can happily not forgive me.
but just drop the bloody subject.
faints.
to think that we used to be friends.

hmm hello.
i am tired of swearing
hah. been a long time since ive been this angry at someone.
oh wells.

*hate me for all i care. there's nothing between us anyway.

2004-06-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh.
this is what you'd call obsession.
hahha i love hanson
oh my gosh. I SO CANT BELIEVE THEY'RE BACK
faints.
taylor's married though. sigh
hahah my hottie.
he's soooo god darned cute!!!
faintsss.
hanson rocks rocks!!
ohmygosh ohmygosh!
okay anw lets recap.
lets see.

thursday had band.
the usual.
except for nurul's absence.
heh.
cant remember much though
but xl and i were bitching like mad
not about you nurul. hahha.
bitch about xl's best friend.
wink wink.

friday went to musictec
had hell a lot of fun.
oh WOW.
then uhm went to borders.
to buy a voodoo doll
cz i wanted to poke someone to death
nah. not that evil.
hahaha walked ard borders with xl.
went home and i cant remember much too.
brain concussion.
ho.

kk then saturday
had un-compulsory band
haha tbone was damn slack.
at 9 i begged xl to go macs for break
then she let me and nurul off.
bought breakfast
we whole day jaywalk le hahaha winkwink.
then went back didnt play ate breakfast
nurul's butter melted along the way
hoho. kk then couldnt finish pancake we cut it into xl's name
hahah so creative.
then we totally slacked like crap man.
left at 11? super early man
went town to uh. what the hell did we do?
oh yeah. we jaywalked again. haha
went heeren walk walk and walk at hmv
lotsa PPG POSTERS and R&J ones too
heh. i wanna buy.
heart first love
it totally captured my attention k.
went smth like

'you'll always be the one in my heart
will i always be the one in yours?'

yeah those lines really captured my attention
like whoa. WHOA.
haha why is hanson so cute??/
esp taylor!!!! and zac too.
oh man faints.
-boycrazyy.
hahaha okay.
then at night went to yishun.
to celebrate daddy's day.
heh had lotsa fun with my best cuzzs.
haha yepps had lotsa fun and ate a lot of food.
heh.
kk then

sunday which is today
went out to eat lunch with my family
then went to buy the equalizer at IMM.
then installed equalizer
parents got pissed at me cz i was listening to the radio
wasnt being helpful bla bla.
rollseyes
so i happily became the maid of the day
folding clothes and cleaning the house
like no one's business.
yuck.
now the computer is fixed
downgraded to windows 2000 pro edition.
so useless
all my documents pictures and music gone gone lorh.
tsk.
blah.
and no msn messenger.
AND no private account like family edition.
tsk useless.
stupid virus.
anw this one is for you.

dont be so stressed la k
and you better dont be so affected by that gundu shithead
anyway,
hahah i think by next yr youre a millionaire.
hahah totally cant make it one.
sticksouttongue.
neh. ho.
kabish. kaboosh.
this ones for her man.
that dumb shithead.
hahah winkwink.

yepps.
ilovehanson.

tata. (:

*happy once again. ((:

wahlao. this entry so long de.

2004-06-17T11:23:00.000+08:00

kau telah hancurkan hidupku
hancurkan kebahagiaanku.
kerana kau
aku sekarang terperangkap antara hidup dan mati
antara alam mimpi dan realiti.

2004-06-17T11:11:00.000+08:00

heh. now is lunch for band
and every section in band is going for section lunch
except for tbone section
heh xl bought us macs so we eating in school
haha. anw went to watch harry potter
and daniel radcliffe is sooooo darn hot!!!
hahahah and i love rupert grint
anw harry potter cheat my money one
cut out a lot a lot a lot of parts le
i wanna kill the stupid director.
but anw i still enjoyed it
almost died-ed of coldness cz i was wearing shorts
heh. was freezing
i almost cried k. sirius so poor thing
harry potter rocks rocks
faints faints.
i love harry potter!!!!!
but tsk no more oliver wood not funky le.
and not much quidditch le
i dont like.
lets sue the dumb director!!
heh yup i am hungry hungry. ((:
heard this song on mtv.
the lyrics quite meaningful

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

haha so funky right.
i love my imaginary may.
and may only. hahaha.
since the real may is taken. sobs.
no offence le sp. heh.
kk xiling wants to eat now.

[i am not affected by you.]

2004-06-16T12:10:00.000+08:00

tsk. dumb sp.
anw. heh.
i am not pms-ing.
neh. i have every reason to be angry
tsk. anw i dont hold grudges.
unlike some people.
neh.

anw the knight bus has many cute guys.
but no more knight bus anymore.
heh. anw
ethel's got moley nipples.
judy say one.
heh.
i am happy happy.
and TBONE SECTION ROCKS ROCKS.

NAT IS BEING IRRITATING.
NEH.=]